Awww Fiona,

You are so sweet and adorable.

You have made my morning darling Lady!

So much love

Mel 🙏💞💛

Being in the void DOES absolutely feel like failure. Thank you for reminding me that this is just an ego trick. Just that one sentence has turned me around in five seconds flat.

Love you more than chocolate, Melanie. xx

Hi Kate,

You are welcome and I’m so pleased my stuff heaps you!

Mel 🙏💕❤️

Thank you again Melanie for bringing out thoughts and feeling I have deeply in my soul. I always need your readings and videos.

Love,
Kate

Valerie,

I had goosebumps reading your post. You are such a force of love, power and truth.

How incredibly you have unfolded your desires into the world!

I know how determinedly you have worked at your healing and personal fullness and being an actualised source to self.

May every continued abundance and love fill your life divinely.

As it will …

Thank you for your blessings, support and love to all of us.

Mel 🙏💕❤️

Awwww Asha,

I adore your share with all of us!

It’s so beautiful and powerful.what greater joy than to be comfortable and free. And is there anything more attractive than this?

Perfect!

I totally agree Asha what an incredible year 2019 is for all of us.

Thank you sweetheart for being you.

Mel 🙏💕❤️

2018 has continued the journey on many levels. My day-job skills were out of date and I won a grant to upgrade computer skills, which I successfully did. Then I found internships to continue that journey and put those skills into actual drawing sets. Years ago I wanted to write, but it seemed unattainable… since 2017 I have been writing and published regularly… A little over year ago I stood onstage in a theatre in town and realized I wanted – longed – to play harp on that stage for a full house… in December this year I played to a packed house for a run of 5 shows. How about that! In 2018 I realized I wanted musical partners to play with and do concerts together in addition to solo work, now I have a harp student who appeared in June and has learned so quickly we played a holiday concert together and have plans for more. And various other musicians have shown up, and we play together… Perhaps best of all, my daughter and I went through an estrangement aided and abetted by my ex (who after all is the reason I found you!)… and our love for each other and joy in life turned out to be stronger, and we reconciled over the holidays. She is away at college, but now our doors are open to each other 😀 I AM SO GRATEFUL.

And the journey continues. I have realized I would like a partner in my life, with whom I can be my authentic self, and vision that we can be the wind under each other’s wings. Putting this out to the universe 🙂 May 2019 be my year to create and live with financial abundance earned by my own head, heart and hands… May I, and we in community who wish it, continue growing, becoming, moving more deeply into love and well being and healing for all our earth and people. May beauty and healing flow and manifest through me. May I have the courage to recognize and let go of anything that may block these goals, and may I have the courage to willingly enter the void and stand there as needed. Aho. Blessed be.

Thank you, Mel, and thank you to our larger community – so grateful we are in this together.

Valerie

Here’s what I did to make this happen:

When I asked myself a while back what is it that I really wanted, I wanted to not just see it in my head via imagination, I really wanted to feel that desire in every part of my body and emotions. I realized that what I really wanted was to feel the way I feel with an intimate partner the way I feel with my BFFs. I wanted to not care about my hair, makeup or clothes. I wanted to say whatever came to my heart and speak openly and freely without concerning myself as to whether a man would like it or use it against me somehow. I wanted to know what it feels like to be as relaxed and easy with a man as I am with everyone else. Which is how I use to be before getting into a relationship with a narc.

So before I started my day and at the end of my morning meditation, I would imagine that every person I was going to meet had the face of my friend Chandra Faye on their torso. Man or woman didn’t matter. Everyone had her face. The cashier, the taxi driver, the waiter. Whomever. Because here’s what I have with my friend….I love her and she loves me and I have never given a thought of how I look to her like I did with men. I’ve never worried that when I called her to go out for a movie she would think I was desperate and judge me like I did with men. I would never feel rejected if she couldn’t join me like I did with men. I never cared about WHAT I ate in front of her or HOW much I ate in front of her like I did with men.

I realized that all I ever wanted in a partner was to feel free and safe. That’s what I’ve always wanted to experience. So I put the face of someone safe on everyone and just relaxed into it. As long as I could feel those natural, relaxed feeling in my body for real, so could the men around me. It actually worked because the feelings were real. I even went so far as to go out to the mailbox completely unkempt and on days when the circles under my eyes were a bit darker from staying up too late, I didn’t bother with any concealer. My friends don’t care about that stuff so by vibrating the same kind of energy that I radiate with friends what could possibly happen? Miracles! Fear fell away. Guardedness fell away. Worry fell away. Healthy vulnerability appeared. Humor appeared. A carefree spirit appeared. Trust in self appeared. Then suddenly men just started talking to me and asking me out. I’ve learned since then that men care just as much about feeling free to be themselves as we do. Any other preferences they might have are further down on the list of desires for the men truly worth getting to know.

The NARP modules helped me embrace “the little me” and by embracing the little me, I could begin to embrace all of me again.

Happy New Year Mel! 2019 is the year for awesomeness! Thank you for all that you do!

Much love to you too Gaia,

I’m so pleased that this deeply resonates with you and has granted you hope and solution.

Sending you blessings and breakthrough.

Mel 🙏💕❤️