Last week my client’s session was about discovering her inner child and learning how to nurture it. If you haven’t read it yet please take a look as it will help understand my client’s  next step of her journey.

This week, when my client started learning to embrace her inner child, we found the next ‘block’ preventing her inner child by being fully accepted by her. Deep down she hadn’t forgiven herself for her past behaviors and choices. She hadn’t learned to forgive herself, even though conceptually she thought she had.

When we haven’t forgiven ourselves, we are not fully accepting our broken and unhealed parts. Because of this, my client could not fully embrace her inner child unless she ceased judging herself.

I would like to explain more about this…

Non-forgiveness is resistance, it is not acceptance, and it keeps creating our separation from self, and the re-enactments in our life of all that we haven’t forgiven ourselves for.

Why? Because life and our soul will keep co-creating all of the conditions necessary to show us how painful and unnatural it is to not love and accept ourself, in order to bring us home to self-love and self-acceptance (our most natural, desirable and authentic state).

Let’s look at this deeper, with a combination of logic and energetic reality. Can you comprehend and understand that everyone in the world does exactly what they feel is ‘right’ at the time of their actions given their present emotional state and fears?

Can you realise that there is no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, (lets please get rid of the judgement and black and white thinking that never served anyone), because there is only emotional impulses and reactions or responses that do create desired results, or take people further away from what they really want to experience.

Let’s use the example of feeling unloved and uncared for by your partner. If you feel this pain intensely, and don’t know how to ask for your needs to be met appropriately, you may throw a tantrum. You may cry, scream, justify, play ‘poor me’, demand or blame. Do you think this is going to create the love, support and attention you really want?

No, of course it won’t!

Does ‘Right’ or ‘Wrong’ Serve You?

Was this ‘right’ or ‘wrong’? Or was it simply a reaction coming from your emotional pain that, at that time, you didn’t have a skill set to handle differently?

If you didn’t have the skill set, (the healing of your ‘trigger’, and the awareness of how to do it differently), how can you blame yourself for reacting to your pain? You can’t! You were doing the best you could at the time with the tools that you had…

Mind you, in regard to not blaming and judging yourself, please know you are still responsible. This does not mean that other people should jump in and sort out your lack of skill set for you. It never was their job.

They are not responsible for you, your conduct, or the creation of your well-being – this is your responsibility.

And it is not their job to cut you some slack and forgive you for acting in ways that did not inspire their love and connection to you.

They don’t have to forgive you, understand your pain, or know you were doing the best you could…

You need to forgive you.

Their part with you, concerning the abuse they inflicted or / and received, and even their reasons for deserting you and leaving you (if they did) are all to do with their own personal journey. They energetically (at soul level) co-created this dance with you for their own healing and evolution, which they may become conscious about and apply and heal, or not…

Mind you – truly, none of that is your business.

…What is important is your business with yourself

Are You Your Past Or Your Future?

When you don’t forgive yourself, you spend a lot of energy in your unnatural state, which means that you are not free to flow into your true, natural state. You have resistance which means that you judge yourself, dislike yourself, or may even have deep inner self-hatred.

You may compulsively go back into the ‘what if’s’, ‘I should have’s’ and ‘If only I had done this or that things could have been different’…

By being ‘the enemy to yourself’ your energy is wrapped up in survival and the inner torment over your past, rather than flowing forward into new pro-active and healthy creations.

You will continually attract people and situations in life that represent how you feel about yourself – and what you did ‘wrong’, which of course is a terrible reality to live.

Our souls are ingenious, and are always in direct collaboration with life. At soul level everything we experience in life is blessed – without exception. And in fact is always ‘right’ in that it is a divine creation and is working in perfect and divine order. The combination of our soul and life is always showing us ‘where we are at’.

If we are aligned with ourselves and integrated (love and accept ourself) we produce and experience more of that, and if we are unconscious, and non-aligned the same applies.

Being aligned and integrated feels great, it feels amazing, and life delivers wonderful and desired results.

Being unaligned and not integrated feels like pain, fear and emptiness, and life delivers the exact opposite of what we truly want.

Life and your soul are always working for you to help you become your authentic, natural state, which does and must start with accepting and loving yourself.

There is no way to get past this point, other than to become it.

What Is There To Forgive?

What is there to forgive when the real you (your soul) perfectly co-created with life all of the circumstances, reactions and results to show you what you needed to heal and get aligned with?

Thank goodness it did, otherwise you would not know how to create a better reality, inner peace, and true ‘oneness’ with yourself, and the bliss and security of knowing what it is to be an Authentic Self creating an Authentic Life (the greatest gift you could ever experience).

Do you understand the Gift you have been presenting yourself by ‘doing it wrong’?

Do you understand that the highest level of forgiveness is: There is nothing to forgive?

Do you think that forgiving yourself is ‘wrong’ because it means you won’t be accountable unless you keep punishing yourself?

If you do think this, please throw that belief system out the window!

When you are holding yourself separated from yourself (non-forgiveness) you are nowhere near creating a different way, or the true solutions that will set you free.

You’re not even on the football field, let alone near the goals.

When you accept that it was all in perfect divine order, that you were doing the best you could with the tools that you had, the pain that you inflicted on others was an experience they called forth for their own evolution, and all of the results granted you perfect feedback to work on yourself and evolve, then you can say:

Yippee! Thank goodness I was showing myself Who I am not, so now I can change ME in order to become WHO I REALLY AM!

Then….

You open the space for responsibility and self-growth, and you leave the old painful reality behind.

Double Yippee!

When you draw a line in the sand, you have a clean slate. Now you have all of the energy and the space to get on with your life, rather than rolling around in the mud, the non-forgiveness, the self-judgement, the pain and re-creations of your ‘less than’ past.

…and more and more of that…Ick!

Why on earth would you want to keep living that reality?

Your Essential Self-Development

Truly, self-forgiveness is vital. It rates right up there with releasing co-dependency tendencies, and learning how to implement healthy boundary function.

The great thing about taking responsibility for self is the realisation that you no longer have to change and fix anything outside yourself (which always feels powerless, uncontrollable and disappointing).

Because when you do work on yourself, everything in your outer experience changes, and starts to fall into place – truly EVERYTHING!
Please post any comments you may have about forgiving, or struggling to forgive yourself.

True Freedom is the being at one with Self and Life. It’s about being at peace.

Sounds great doesn’t it?

But how do we get there, and most importantly how do we stay there?

Breaking Free from Co-dependency

Undoubtedly the first step to achieving True Freedom is breaking free from the amnesia that has been imposed on the human condition – co-dependency.

We have all been modelled to believe that we have to get our self from outside of our self. We have all come from conditioning and programming that has led us to feel that we are unlovable and unworthy. Many structured religions stated that if left to our own devices that we are carnal and that we will do the wrong thing. We were told that we were worthless and empty unless we filled ourselves up with something greater than ourselves…We were made to feel shame, guilt, and self-judgement, and that we were unacceptable as our self.

Our parents and our peers were also modelled under the same conditions. We were not exposed or brought up by role models of healthy self-love.

Unfortunately this feeling of being empty and unworthy caused us to turn to ‘the outside’ in order to try and feel whole. We didn’t trust ourselves, we didn’t know that we were lovable and worthy, and we believed we could never feel this way on our own.

We looked out to life and pleaded “Please will someone or something come along to make me feel okay about me!”

And we did feel okay, if someone was loving us, or if we had a new car, or a new home, or a new wardrobe or hair do. If this happened, we would temporarily feel good about ourselves. But what happened when this person decided to stop loving us, (or didn’t keep telling us they loved us ten times a day) or when the novelty of our new car wore off, or after the first month of setting up our new home with furniture and decorating expired, or when our new clothes became a part of our everyday routine?

We went back to feeling unlovable and unworthy.

Why? Because we always believed that our own good feelings had to be provided from the outside. We didn’t realise that WE are the source of this to ourselves, and being this source is in fact our natural state that the conditioning of ‘the outside has to provide it’ disconnected us from.

The only way out of this painful bind is to wake up from the illusion. Can you see that it became very easy to control you? Can you see that it made you buy stuff? Can you see that it encouraged you to go into debt creating certain institutions to flourish?

I love the story about Buddha. This story goes like this: Buddha said to man “I have hidden your divinity somewhere where you will never find it”.

So man determinedly wanted to prove Buddha wrong, and set out to find his own divinity. He scoured every inch of the planet, the deepest oceans, the highest mountain, and the farthest ranges. He searched every nook and cranny.

Man came back to Buddha and said “You’re right you have put my divinity where I wouldn’t find it. Please tell me where it is”. Buddha replied “You were only ever going to find your own divinity after you had exhausted every other avenue. Your divinity has always been within you, it is YOU.”

Breaking free of co-dependency is the first essential step to break free from the powerless and imposed conditioning that has rendered you unworthy, unlovable and empty. It has caused you to forget the greatest truth of your entire existence, which is: Nothing outside of you can give you YOU, only you can.

And then, true to Law of Attraction, you then become the energetic force that attracts ‘more of you’, because that is what you have always done! Then there will be no more attracting, maintaining and participating with who, and what makes you feel unlovable and unworthy.

Boundaries are EVERYTHING

I can’t state this enough, boundaries are what allows us to create and keep our true freedom.

It is astounding when we don’t have a grip on boundaries, we have no idea what they mean, how to implement them and that we even have a right to implement them in our life.

Co-dependency and lack of good boundary function truly do go hand-in-hand. When I was a total co-dependent I used to believe that people owed me good behaviour. I had a righteous indignation regarding people that acted poorly and didn’t respect others. After all I was a good person – I wouldn’t treat people that way! How dare they?

I remember, way before I had any sort of grip on boundaries, I was on the phone complaining to a girlfriend about a lady who was blocking my parking spot in the street. I said to her “How rude, I can’t believe this woman does this!”, as well as a whole heap of other associated judgements and self-righteous statements.

My friend listened patiently (she was much more evolved than me at the time) and said “Have you asked her to move her car?” I said to her “No, why should I have to, she should just know!”

Wow! Boy did I know nothing about boundaries, and boy was I a powerless whining being!

When you do understand boundaries you realise that it is about being aligned with the truth of your life and being prepared to calmly and clearly back it.

It is also about knowing that NO-ONE owes you anything!

Please understand no-one is responsible for your well-being, emotional vibration and truth. Why not? The answer is simple – because YOU are the creator of it!

It was not surprising that I regularly attracted rude and violating people – because I was taking NO responsiFbility to be the caretaker of my life…I was instead playing the ‘righteous police’ from a very passive-aggressive, powerless place.

Since understanding boundaries, I totally accept that people can be and do whatever they want to be and do (everyone has their own model of the world), and that isn’t my business. What is my business is Who I Choose to Be, and what action next to take to live the way I want.

That is True Freedom – knowing that I can create my truth, regardless of what someone else is or isn’t doing, because I can create and maintain my own alignment and safety in life. I can (without judgement, fear or pain) ask for what I need, and if people don’t have the resources to be respectful, than I can take further action (like an intervention order if an extreme case), or choose not to participate. It’s not personal – it’s just me walking truth, and my well-being is not dictated by anyone else.

I am the creator of it.

Acceptance and Resistance

The next step is: Understanding the difference between Acceptance and Resistance.

You may think that when you say “No” to something, and state you don’t like it, and think it stinks, that you are eliminating it from your life.

Wrong!

When you charge on something, when you think about what you don’t like, when you talk about it, when it annoys you, hurts you or creates your despair, you attract more of that into your life.

Imagine walking down an enormous corridor with a mural on every wall. Imagine that this mural has pictures of pain and destruction, and pictures of love and bliss, and everything in-between. If you take your eyes and focus to the pain and destruction and judge it, you start feeling it, and in fact your body starts to feel it as well.

Why? Because you have just invited this pain and destruction into your reality. You have in fact vibrationally become this pain and destruction.

What do you think is going to be vibrationally drawn into your life now?

Resistance is judgement. Resistance / judgement comes from the human illusion that something is ‘wrong’ or ‘right’.

In Ultimate Truth (which always sets you free) there is no such thing as ‘wrong’ or ‘right’. There is only what serves you and what doesn’t serve you to create Who You Are and what you want to do.

In the physical Universe every polar opposite exists. There is hot / cold, up / down, light / day. All of this needs to exist because you can’t have one without the other.

There is also of course the vibrational polarity of fear and love.

If you condemn any of this (or anything that ‘triggers’ this) then you are holding yourself separated from the version you do want to receive / achieve.

Your job (once working through releasing co-dependency and creating healthy boundaries – which is essential first), if you truly want to be Free – is to accept that all of it exists, and all of it has its place and none of it is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’.

It is all meant to exist so that you can be a conscious creator observing it all, and then choosing to focus on your preference in relation to Who You Are and What You Want To Create.

Any time you judge, and ‘make up’ (yes it’s a choice) that what you are experiencing is ‘wrong’, that ‘wrongness’ is Who YOU Become and What YOU Start To Create because you have connected to it and made it your reality.

When I learnt this stuff, I realised very quickly (when I had my awakening on the bathroom floor that day) the simplicity of the Ultimate Reality Truth I have written here. I knew I had a long way to go, but realised where I had to go to achieve True Freedom. So I got started on it…

In every area of my life that I was judging, I stopped myself. Instead of bringing the horrible vibration into my being as a result of my believing it was ‘wrong’, I started to bless and accept this thing in my experience and used my observation (without pain and fear) to make the decision as to whether or not this was My Reality, and to be My Truth and act accordingly.

Astounding things started immediately happening. I stopped dragging into my experience all the things that I didn’t want – namely fear, abuse, violation, catastrophes, hold-ups, disappointments and betrayals (I had a lot to work on).

I broke Free.

I stopped trying to fix and change the aspects of life that used to keep showing up that were hurting me (because I judged them as ‘wrong’), and in fact these things stopped turning up.

I started flowing towards who I really was, and what I really wanted. I was consciously choosing the pictures in my mural of life, and easily detaching from the pictures that were Not My Reality..

I love the ‘NMR’ acronym!

Why? Because when something comes into my life that doesn’t serve me to create Who I Am, I just say “Not My Reality!”

Give it a try…

Acceptance is True Freedom. Because when we have acceptance, we fear nothing. We realise that life is not meant to be perfect. We realise it has a flow, and a system of ‘tide in’, ‘tide out’, that it has it’s cycles – just like the moon, and menstruation.

We realise that in the down turns that we can be in acceptance, and each time we have a downturn that observation and deciding Who We Are in relation to this downturn always creates growth opportunities to expand and heal a previous problem that was keeping us stuck in painful patterns.

We then are able to evolve and create a higher and higher vibrations for ourselves because of these times. Therefore we can welcome these times without fear and in total acceptance..

Night must come before day, and when we do a ‘night’ in acceptance we create consciousness, and when day breaks we start experiencing days that were more glorious than we could ever imagine.

If we keep doing resistance / judgement in our ‘nights’ we stay stuck in pain and fear, and we get nothing but night after night after night.

Daybreak never comes.

Maybe you will start to realise areas of your life that you judge as ‘wrong’ whilst trying to force them to be ‘right’. When this realisation first dawned on me, I knew that I was judging many areas of my life, that were continuing as patterns in my life – patterns that didn’t serve me. What areas of your life do you find yourself judging the most?

I’ll give you an example.

Let’s say you have your heart set on a man who is non-committal and unavailable. He makes hints that there is a future for the two of you, yet right now you don’t have a rock-solid relationship with him.

You may find that you feel compelled to show him what a great catch you are by showering him with love, support and kindness. You hope that by doing so that he will fall in love with you, change and decide that he really does want a relationship with you.

On the surface this may seem really reasonable and logical, however let me fill you in on what is really going on here.

Doing the Opposite of What Works

He won’t change, not tomorrow, not next week, and not ever….

The reason is: He doesn’t have to…He can have you granting him all this attention, and not have to take the risk of commitment (because he has fears regarding it, or can sit with his original decision that he doesn’t wish to commit to you – and can wait around and see if someone that does inspire him to commit turns up). Quite frankly you giving and loving him is NOT going to change anything about where he is at.

Why? Because he has no reason to change – he can stay non-committal and get rewarded for it by yourself!

Why on earth would he want to change?

There is only thing that might possible change him, and that is YOU LEAVING!

That means removing your love, your giving, the excuses you’re making for him, the blame you are putting on yourself about ‘not being good enough’, ‘having to earn love’, ‘having to prove you’re lovable’ – in short all of the defunct ways of you trying to make him commit to you ,and let him MISS YOU…Let him understand that he can’t have you in his life (and all the wonderful goodies that go with it) unless he DOES commit.

If he said, “I need to think about it” or “Maybe one day”, or “I need time”, or “I’m not quite ready” – then give him as much time as he needs to think about it – ALONE!

This gives you the greatest chance ever of him changing, and you getting your needs met – which are truly a committed and real relationship.

If he really does have a thing for you and realises (when you’re gone) how much you mean to him, he has to change in order to have you and all the great stuff that goes with you!

If he doesn’t step up, and doesn’t come to you with a commitment, he was never going to! What a relief to know that you weren’t going to hang on for more days, weeks, months or years to a man stopping you from being open and available to a great guy who wants what you want…and can provide you with the real thing.

The greatest truth here is: No-one is going to love, respect and COMMIT to you, until you do that for yourself. Being in a relationship and hanging on without a commitment is POINT BLANK not providing yourself with these things.

The Energetic Laws of Life and Love

Now, let’s look at – if you are in a committed relationship.

Understanding Law of Attraction is important here, and aligning with the indisputable Energetic Ultimate Realities of life is very helpful.

Let’s say your partner does something that really annoys you, upsets you, and leaves you feeling unfulfilled and unloved. In saying so, please remember it is important to understand whether or not you are in a relationship with a narcissist, because please know if you are, nothing you do is going to change your unhappiness and pain (that is other then leaving)…

However, please know there are many non-narcissistic (NPD) relationships that cause pain, disappointment and feelings of being unloved. In fact it can be argued that every relationship will go through its trials and tribulations, whereby you may not like your partner, but it is very important to remember that you love him or her, and this is why the following information is very important…

Law of Attraction states: Whatever we focus on we get MORE of THAT!

An example may be: If your partner is always working and not available enough for you – your focus or resentment, disappointment and frustration will only create more of that which you are angry, disappointed and frustrated about…

Therefore getting angry, sad, frustrated and voicing (possible vehemently) your pain to your partner sets up a How to Lose situation – and you can bank on the situation getting worse and worse…

The same goes for every situation in your love life where you feel your needs aren’t being met.

“Unfair!” You say “Shouldn’t I be able to speak up?!” Yes of course you can…for sure! But I didn’t make the Energetic Rules of Life up, and truly I am more interested in giving you solutions that will work rather than doing the treadmill of round and round in circles, repeating the same pain and frustration time and time again…

Wouldn’t you like to know a better way? I hope you would, because I’m about to show you how…

Ascertaining Critical and Non-Critical Values

A very interesting dynamic of life (and we are all connected to it) is that everything we ‘attract’ which is painful relates to an unhealed part within ourselves… so not only do we have the opportunity to heal our relationship connections, and get our needs met, we can also heal and transcend the parts of our inner personality that have been unconsciously tripping us up in the love dynamics we’ve been experiencing.

If you are in a relationship that you feel isn’t working, or are considering a relationship that hasn’t fallen into place yet, I would like to challenge you to put pen to paper and do the following exercise.

You may find this exercise spooky but in a really good way…because it will bring you a lot of clarity…

Let’s start…

1) Make a list of the values that are important to you in a relationship.

Some examples may be:

• Integrity
• Loyalty
• Commitment
• Exclusivity
• Trust
• Respect

If you are currently having a specific issue with your partner, one that leaves you feeling let down, because it’s a value you’re not receiving, then note this value too. An example may be: “Time spent together”

2) Write down your partner (or prospective partner’s) attitude to your list of values. Be as honest with this as you can. Don’t write down ‘what if’ or ‘potential’. Write honestly about how this partner (or prospective partner) is with you right here / right now. Writing down “He says he wants to commit to someone one day” is delusional. If he hasn’t committed to you (and believe me when I man wants to commit you totally know about it), write “He doesn’t value committing to me”, because this is your Accurate Truth.

From this first part of the exercise, you will see whether or not you and your partner (or prospective partner) are seriously mismatched. If indeed the vital aspects of Integrity, Commitment, Respect and Exclusivity (as examples) are missing, you do in fact have unliveable differences which are never going to work for you.

These are values you must not compromise on. If these values are breached it’s time to honour yourself and leave this relationship in order to connect with someone who does align with your critical values.

If however critical values are not being compromised and the issues involve non-critical differences then the relationship certainly does stand a chance of healing.

Please note: If your critical values are breached, the rest of this exercise is NOT relevant for you. Please only proceed if your needs are not being met on non critical issues ONLY.

IF you don’t wish to leave the relationship even though your critical values are not being met, then PLEASE commit to healing work on yourself – because you are not going to create REAL LOVE in any shape or form in your life until you do!

The Gap Between What You Want and What You’re Receiving

You must realise from this point on we are only involved with ‘partners’, and not ‘prospective partners’.

There is no point playing any relationship situation in your mind unless you HAVE a relationship. Without commitment, exclusivity and Integrity there is NO relationship. The only relationship you need to be working on right now if getting one right with YOURSELF, and this is necessary before you can attract and receive a REAL relationship.

Now if you are in a real relationship,

3) Write down the treatment you would like to receive from your partner

An example may be:

• He’s in love with me and connected to me
• He values our time together, and makes ‘us’ a priority
• He is supportive to me in times of need

You can make this list as long as you like, and make sure you list the desires you feel you are not presently receiving in the relationship.

4) Write down the perception of how you believe he treats you in regard to these topics. Be honest about how you feel from your perspective.

This part of the exercise will grant you the information to really understand how far What you Want is away from What You are Receiving.

5) Go through the list of what your partner is not granting you, and do the honest self reflection about whether or not YOU provide yourself with what you want. If you’re not totally honesty with this question, you will miss the healing point and the ability to shift these problems in your life.

Example:

He is not supportive to me in my times of need.

Question to self: Am I supportive to myself in times of need?

Honest answer: I am hard on myself when I slip up, when I get something wrong or when something goes wrong in my life. In fact my inner dialogue is all about beating myself up. I don’t support myself emotionally, and I actually have trouble asking for support from others. Then I expect support, and get resentful when i don’t receive it.

Continue on, and do this honest assessment for every point where you feel your needs are not being met.

This part of the exercise will reveal an astounding truth to you. And that TRUTH is: the things that we are not receiving from life are usually the things that we are failing to grant ourself!

By doing this part of the exercise you’re creating an incredible shift. You are losing the resentment and the focus on what you aren’t getting, which renders you powerless, and coming home to the place where you do have the power to make changes, which is within yourself.

Is the Relationship Worth Working On?

If you want to work on your relationship, and you know that critical values are not compromised, then you can energetically create astounding changes that will improve your relationship and create wonderful win / wins, whereby YOU (and your partner) can both have your needs met.

These are:

1) Drop all blaming, expectations and resentment, and apply the awareness and self-ownership that YOU have had a large part to play in manifesting the ‘less than’ results you have been receiving.

2) Start granting yourself the support, love and aspects of your life that you feel you have not been receiving

3) Ask for what you need in loving ways that inspire and allow your partner to want to step up for you and the relationship

4) Express gratitude when you see any sign of receiving what you want (no matter how small). Tell your partner how happy it makes you feel when he or she does whatever it is that you want.

5) Write a list and great detail of all the beautiful things you love about your partner, focus on these things and feel your heart expand with the love and joy, in order to create the attraction of more of that

6) Write down a list and great detail regarding what you want to receive from your partner as if it has already happened. Focus in the warmth, joy, love and gratitude you feel from receiving these things in order to create more of that.

Try this for two weeks, and make sure you work through this diligently and then consciously focus on it every day. You don’t have to believe it will work – just try it!

What have you got to lose? Nothing! That is nothing other than the horrible feelings of pain, resentment and unhappiness and more unmet needs!

I hope this has helped you. Truly there are too many relationships that become toxic, and end, when they truly don’t need to.

Every relationship offers a grand opportunity to heal, because truly every relationship is an incredible forum that exposes our unhealed parts.

Every relationship is a gift – totally!

Because every one of us is an incredible vibration creator – the most important part of creating a healthy relationship, and getting our needs met, is losing our toxicity, the fear pain and resentment of what we’re not getting, and moving into the conscious and empowered vibrational creation of what it is that we truly want.

If you go through this exercise, and still come up against blocks of pain, fear and resentment and know these negative emotions are getting in the way of creating a healthier relationship, then you truly do need some help.

Quanta Freedom Healing is the most effective way I know of achieving the shifts you need.

Great luck manifesting wonderful love, and getting your needs met flowingly and effortlessly!

We may experience this in many different forms. Maybe this person who once vowed and declared we are their soul mate, that they truly love us, and they can’t live without us has moved on to another relationship without even a second glance. And maybe this person is attempting to discredit and destroy us, and is trying to rip us apart in property and custody battles.

These behaviours are clearly the very opposite of what love should be.

Of course this feels personal, and the narcissist’s tactics bring on every insecurity and fear that we may have had about ourselves, namely I am not lovable and not worthy of being loved.

Virtually every individual who has sustained a relationship with a narcissist loved this person, and kept loving until it hurt – horrifically. We can agonise about the injustice of handing over so much of our love and support for months, years or decades to come to the horrific realisation that all of this loving and giving amounted to nothing, and was never genuinely reciprocated by the very person who was meant to love us.

In all of the people that I work with, and within my own narcissistic abuse experience, this situation proves to be one of the hardest to get past, and to come to terms with. We feel emotionally annihilated by this insane betrayal of what we thought our love with this person was.

As human beings with a conscience, compassion and love to give, it feels unthinkable that another person is incapable of loving, or that they can profess love one minute, and do the exact opposite the next.

This insane version of love greatly disturbs our logic and destroys our emotions, because ‘love’ is the very essence of why we want to be in a relationship, connect and share our lives with another person. Loving and the being able to share love is as natural a desire for us as it is to breathe air.

When we look at our version of love we have no ability to fathom, let alone accept, why the narcissist did not reciprocate love genuinely.

Understanding Why the Narcissist is Incapable of Love

In order to come to terms with The Narcissist Never Loved You, you must understand why he or she acts the way narcissists do.

• The narcissist does not operate as what we know is a ‘normal’ human being.
• The narcissist has no desire to allow love, teamwork and co-operation into his or her life.
• The narcissist believes he or she has to remain ‘separate’ in order to survive.
• The narcissist needs to dump his or her internal torment onto an intimate partner and make the other person at fault in order to try to relieve his or her tormented inner self.
• The narcissist needs to steal energy (‘narcissistic supply’) in order to attempt to fill their own pain of inner emptiness.
• The narcissist, due to internal emptiness needs to take energy, and doesn’t have the resources to give energy once having secured much needed supply.
• The narcissist through damaging a person close to them, experiences the omnipotent high of feeling significant enough to affect another person in this manner.
• The narcissist cannot genuinely feel love, but knows how to feign it in order to secure attention and significance.
• Narcissists know that intimate people in their life, who are hooked, are the best targets to harvest as well as release internal anger, and that these people will hang around whilst it takes place.

From our own moral compass, these things seem horrific and unspeakable. The following information may be confrontation, but the reason I am expressing what I am about to say is because it will help you understand what narcissism is…

If we are all honest with ourselves – we know that the times when we feel empty, worthless, scared and insecure that we may have acted in manipulative ways, and even hurt other people in order to try and feel better within ourselves.

Whether or not we were children or adults, we know our capacity to be immature and nasty. If we live our life through a lens of fear and victimised feelings, we feel separate, unworthy and unlovable, and may act narcissistically when seeing other people as the enemy.

Hopefully these times are momentary, and because we have a conscience we often regret what we have done – and apologise and take responsibility. If we apply self-realisation, we realise that these tactics of fear, separation and egoic defence mechanisms do not procure healthy results, and accordingly we decide to grow up.

Can you imagine what it would be like if you were stuck in this programming with no way out? This is exactly the reality for the narcissist who has such an over-developed, fearful and aggressive ego and such a damaged, stunted and numb sense of connection, union and trust, that the narcissist simply cannot operate in any other way. If he or she momentarily does, as soon as self-loathing and fear re-surfaces (which are the narcissist’s powerful inner drivers) the old compulsions kick straight back into gear and constantly reassert.

Quite simply the narcissist can’t and doesn’t grow up.

You would have experienced this many times. Just when you think the narcissist gets it, takes responsibility for the poor behaviour and professes to change, My Hyde appears again, and you’re going back through the same abusive, non-sensical and mind-bending patterns. You continually feel like you are battling with an irrational 5 year old.

If you are really honest with yourself – you know that this is not what ‘love’ is meant to be.

The truth of the matter is: the narcissist is incapable of love, because the narcissist is incapable of loving and accepting his or her self. The enemy within becomes the enemy without – and everyone is the enemy because of this self-loathing – and as the intimate partner, this most definitely means you are the closest target on this list.

The first step in gaining relief from the torment of realising He or she never loved me, is the acceptance of the truth that a narcissist does what a narcissist does, because they are a narcissist.

The Truth will always set you free…

Your Soul Truth

(Feel into this…)

When we resist The Truth, our healing process cannot begin, because we try to change ‘what is’ into a version of ‘what we want it to be’. ‘What is’ simply is – and denial means our emotions and life will keep beating us up until we accept the truth. Delusion, denial and non-acceptance are resistance which creates our self-disintegration, because we can never come to peace with our life in the now.

When we accept The Truth we finally start to set ourselves free, take back our power and incorporate a version of ‘love’ that is going to work.

One thing is for certain, you can’t make a narcissist love you, and in fact you can’t make anyone love you, you can only learn how to love yourself, and then people who are capable of genuine love will gravitate towards you.

Like so many others I used to seek myself through others. I had numerous partners, even before the narcissist, whereby I only felt loved if they were loving me. I didn’t know how to have an authentic sense of love for myself. As a result I would try to make people who didn’t have the resources love me, and stayed attached to them in this futile exercise.

When I realised The Truth, which all along was: This had always been about learning to Love Myself, everything shifted.

No longer was I attracted to unavailable, addiction prone or narcissistic individuals. THEN healthy people that showed me genuine love became my reality.

I explain in detail how you can make this change in my eBook How to Recognise and Heal Co-dependency.

(Please note this eBook is included in the Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program)

Additionally, you will learn how to reject people that don’t love you, rather than believing and feeling that it is you that is being rejected.

In order to get real love you must understand:

• It isn’t anyone else’s job to supply you with ‘love’, it’s your job.
• Your loveableness does not rely on any specific person’s level of love or non-love.
• When you don’t love and back yourself, you will rationalise away the warning signs, the pain and the abuse, and try to make an abusive person love you in order to feel whole.
• You haven’t previous to, and during this abuse, felt ‘enough’ or ‘lovable’ unless someone else was granting you love, and you felt rejected and unlovable when they weren’t.

Coming Home to Loving You

The Laws of Life and Energetic Reality is an absolute force and the foundation of all reality you experience. This system is undeniable, and can’t be shortcut.Your experience in life will only ever supply and provide you with what it is that you are supplying yourself.

The ‘gap’ that the narcissist was able to operate through is: You hadn’t yet learnt healthy boundaries, how to love and respect yourself fully, or how to let go of the ‘dream’ that someone else was going to provide your love and safety and inner fullness for you.

All of us who have suffered narcissistic abuse wanted to feel whole, safe, lovable and ‘enough’ as a result of another person confirming this for us. The truth is, we hadn’t as yet confirmed these essential ‘self commodities’ within ourself. We hadn’t realised the absolute need to genuinely love, respect and back ourselves in order to receive more of that from others.

The realisation ‘he or she never loved me’ is pointing us to the place of authenticity, and the way home to the love we really want to create in our life. The crippling pain (which is arguably like no other) has brought on the necessity to understand what we need to establish within ourselves.

When you do the work on this, you will know that it is irrelevant that the narcissist isn’t capable of love, in fact that is the narcissist’s issue and curse in life to bear (the inability to know, participate in and share genuine love), whereas you do have this ability, and you (unlike the narcissist) can turn your love experience around.

This is not about the narcissist – this was always about you. The narcissist was simply a catalyst showing you the truth.

When you do the work on your inner, a person who is incapable of love will not be your reality. You will no longer agonise over the ‘what if’s’, ‘should have beens’, and the wasted years of your effort and love, and you will come home to yourself genuinely and create genuine love in your life.

Your healing is the need to let go of the need to gain yourself through love from the narcissist, and fully commit to the journey of loving yourself.

You are capable of creating real love from within, and this is the only place that manifests it genuinely from others. That is the life you deserve.

Once accepting and being at peace with ‘the narcissist didn’t love me’, you have the golden opportunity to claim the gift of giving you back to loving yourself.

Those of you that have come to terms that the narcissist never loved you, please share your stories and insight into how you overcame this hurdle.

It will help and inspire many to do the same.

Remember, you can always remain anonymous.

This week’s newsletter idea came to me whilst working with a client. Thank you, Bonnie, for this inspiration! This newsletter is about self-empowerment and why we must disconnect from co-dependent to outside sources to create our truth.

Trying to Find the Answer from the Outside

Many of us question when love is going to work in our life. I have experienced both sides of the fence. Once upon a time (a long time ago), I worked professionally on a Tarot Line. At the time, I had a growing interest in personal development and found it quite disturbing when the same people would continuously call to ask When is he coming back to me? Does he love me? and If he’s not the one, when is the love of my life coming?

No matter how hard I tried to get these women to empower themselves and become an attraction force for love, I couldn’t. They were broken, empty and not in their power at all. These ladies were not engaging in their own lives, and their lives were on hold whilst relying completely on what ‘he’ was or wasn’t going to do.

Frighteningly, some women hadn’t heard from a particular man for 5+ years and were still stuck in limbo and pain.

I found it heartbreaking, and after a year of this job, I decided to leave.

I admit I have been one of these women, maybe not quite to that extent, but co-dependently hanging onto the advice from psychics, numerologists and astrologists to ease my inner emptiness and loneliness.

In fact, during the times when I felt the most empty (before I discovered the Truth about becoming my Creator), I would regularly pull out my cards or go over my transits and try to find some answer to relieve my fears of being alone or being stuck in a relationship that wasn’t working.

Can you relate?

Chances are many of you can because the tendency to try to gain power and answers outside of ourselves is a common female affliction. It’s called co-dependency…Sadly co-dependency doesn’t work as it only brings us more pain.

I still do readings, but I do them very rarely (because, in virtually every case, Quanta Freedom Healing provides more real value). I always strongly (adamantly) suggest vibrational shift work for people who prefer readings over the real work of becoming the Creator for themselves powerfully and authentically.
This never happens when we wait for the ‘outside’ to change and do something.

There is No Outside

Get this – and get it very clearly…There is no ‘outside!’ The ‘outside’ is stuff showing up as a match to your vibrational ‘inside’ – pure and simple!

This is irrefutably The Truth…

Please know I thoroughly believe in the powerful evidence that can result from a reputable reading. I believe that even the greatest sceptics would find it very hard to dismiss the information gleaned from a real astrologer or numerologist, who can accurately pinpoint your strengths, weaknesses, occurrences in your life, deep karmic patterns and tribulations and potential.

I firmly believe these systems of nature, life and the universe and how they relate to us as individuals are real, yet what I know is the True Power and Reality of our life is how we choose to work on and align ourselves.

You see, all the evidence discovered in your ‘charts’ was created by you.

Your True Self is not Your Weaknesses.

Regardless of your karmic patterns, weaknesses and insecurities in your makeup (false belief systems and associated fears), you can release these inner issues that are keeping you separated from real love and return to your True Self Power regarding love (and any other topic).

Why? Because your True Self is always what ‘you want’ – your soul does not get it wrong, and life is waiting to deliver you these desires (you and Life are energetically one) once you have cleaned up your false beliefs and fears.

This is the only formula to bag what you want! Information regarding what ‘Life is going to do’ won’t because it can’t deliver What You Want without inner alignment.

If you know you are interested in metaphysics and gaining spiritual answers, please stop seeking that power outside of yourself (other than for clues and guidance about yourself), and please stop thinking that You, Life and The Universe are disconnected things.

Stop thinking that Life and the Universe are doing things to you, and start thinking, and more importantly, knowing that You and you alone are the Creator and the director vibrationally of Life and The Universe in your entire experience.

In effect, you have been making it all up. That means you have been creating everything in your experience about your belief systems and feelings about Love and every other topic in your experience.

Isn’t this exciting? Isn’t it wonderful to know that if your love experience is not what you want, you can stop looking to the outside to try to make it work and come home to your inner to create what works?

Please note that all future newsletter topics will be posted here on this blog so that you can contribute, share your thoughts, and ask questions. I would love to hear what you think of the blog and if you have any suggestions to improve it. I will be doing my best to respond to all comments.