Brightest Blessings,
Mark

Hi KC,

you are welcome.

That is great that you are working Module 1, and sticking at it…great job..

What you will find is that it is going to be of great benefit to incubate some, really focus on healing and really work on getting your ‘inside’ state healthy and strong..

Then you will find it much easier to ‘come out’ and you will find these events simply won’t be happening in your experience..

If you stick at this – yes KC you will recover, truly.

Keep shifting out ‘what hurts’ and you will find the things about him that hurt so much, in the future piece by piece will have no emotional charge.

It truly is the most courageous thing we will ever do – meet OURSELVES….and also the most powerful and valuable thing we can ever do for ourselves…because it is the only way we can ever have authentic happiness and freedom..

I believe you will make it KC – absolutely.

Please know you can with NARP support email me direct for support if you wish…

It would also be a lovely idea for you to join the NARP Members Forum – there are many wonderful people in there who can also assist, support and encourage you.

I’m so proud of you for taking this giant step..

Mel xo

Thank you for posting to me; it is kind of you to share to try to boost a total stranger. I am trying, I am still on module 1. A stranger recently verbally attacked me and physically intimidated me for absolutely no reason in a crowded venue…I was immediately protected by other kind people and he was also removed from the venue, but it was my first trigger after beginning no contact. I had to leave immediately following (my friend was there with her fiancé – they understood me leaving and feel bad that I can’t seem to go anywhere without completely unprovoked “drama” of some sort happening…always. This last one was the worst…he reminded me so much of my N, his rage, his eyes, his attack…I had to go home, and I was a nervous wreck for hours.
Yesterday, I planned to meet a friend out with her friends for dinner/happy hour…and it was excited to go, but then had a near (it was close to full blown) panic attack and I couldn’t go. I was too afraid I’d see him, or someone he knew who would report back to him.
There are times that I feel confident and then will suddenly have extreme anxiety – worse than when I was actually with the N! I accept that it is an energy battle of some sort, and hope I will someday recover.

I have a couple of friends left, but one…not sure if I completely trust anymore and I don’t know why, and the other simply does not understand, and gets angry at me for not just moving on, posting my life updates on social media, etc. she is trying to control me too though her intentions,I believe, are good…she simply does not understand or even believe that I am dealing with a sociopath who does not care about boundaries and literally ( as he has multiple restraining orders…even from his own adult child), no job, no responsibility…he literally has nothing to lose. That gives him a lot of power because he simply doesn’t care.

I will never go back to hi though I struggle with believing he never felt any love for me – it’s the only thing I ever asked for from him and he lied, used, manipulated, and broke me…and I accept, though he’s never said it, I accept he never loved me–his actions prove that.

This is truly a recovery and a pain that has to be done alone. No one in my circle has a clue of what I’ve been through, what I’m still dealing with through daily emails that cannot be stopped, and the journey to recovery that I fear is going to be painful, difficult, and slow….but at least I still somehow have hope that I will get through this. There are many, many things that are already greatly improving in my work and family life….so, I will get to the other side of this someday.
KC

Hi Anna,,

you are so welcome..

I am so pleased this ‘spoke’ to you 🙂

Bless!

Mel xo

KC darling, I’m a single mother of Miss 8 and 4 years ago i had nothing but my credit card left and took Mel’s hand. I was desperate to feel safe, to feel free, to stop the insanity. Absolutely desperate. It is TOTALLY WORTH EVERY SINGLE BEATING HEART BEAT to work with Mel and Narp. It works immediately and I had total of 7 years of counseling from various therapists from the first time i met the ex Narc to just before I had my first session with Mel. The nightmares stopped after starting with Mel. Nothing else stopped them, nothing else stopped the panic, the anxiety, the pain. Please I’m begging you for You, Do NARP and HEAL darling.
With all the Love in my Heart
xx

Hi Mel,

Thanks for your patient and thoughtful explanation! And thank you for crystalising your healing process into the NARP programme- I shall check it out!

I like what you mention about “energetic impossibility”- it is really our current energy state that attracts certain circumstances into our lives! This is such a timely share. I have been in a very down state and unable to focus at work- my boss is often giving me abusive vibes and unfair treatment, not to the extent of narc abuse but transmitting very negative energies. Being unable to recover from the negativity, it traps me in a vicious cycle of getting even further embroiled into the pain. I recognise that I ought to start on evolving any wounds to get myself out of the rut.

Thank you Mel for your enlightening share. I really appreciate all the dedication you have made to help us in this community.

xoxo Candice