The distress you are exhibiting is supply for someone who can not feel or love in a healthy way.

He wants to exert power over you because he can not feel himself in healthy ways.

If he can get someone upset or to feel something when he feels nothing at all it is amusing to him. It’s narcissistic supply. Like a doll he takes off a shelf, pulls a string and it cries. How silly he says. I don’t understand why this makes them cry. Let’s pull the string again.

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You just proved why you ARE a monster. Be gone!

It is like reading a condensed version of events that happened in my 4 year relationship.

I am excited and motivated to heal myself and do the work necessary to never be attracted or attractive to a narcissist again.

I was completely blindsided at his ability to “toss” me aside whenever things became difficult for us, or we went through stressful situations as he was only there when it suited him and punished me for having any sense of individuality claiming I was “acting single” and being “inconsiderate of him and the relationship”, while his pastimes were being out every night at bars and restaurants until all hours of the morning.

Also, a (seemingly) benevolent person, loved by everyone, idolized, appreciated, generous, always present and ready to help others. This very fact made me (and still makes me) question whether I was the ungrateful person and whether it was all my fault.

Behind closed doors I would be ignored, invalidated, have my own sense of reality questioned and my morals belittled being told I was a liar and that my values did not align with his.

I am just distraught.
There is so much I could add to this as the list goes on.

This article is spot on and I am so horrified at the way I have been manipulated even though I am struggling to admit and accept as I still think I love this man.

Thank you Melanie for helping me hopefully start this healing process and start cutting this poison out. I am scared because I am young and I don’t know if I can stick to it. But seeing how many people have had such shockingly identical experiences, has started to give me the reassurance that I am not the problem.

This whole time I have been thinking I had a mental health issue, when I’m actual fact… it’s exacerbated and anxiety, depression and PTSD as a result of this abuse.