I am so pleased my material has been able to help you this much so far.

To really move forward, heal deeply on the inside and release and transform the patterns which have made you a match for narc abuse usually means doing the deep inner work.

This is what NARP (The Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Progam) provides, and as such it is my highest and most complete recommendation.

Mel xo

Pain is only excruciating when we are avoiding it…and not willing to feel it…and unfortunately by doing so it does not disappear! In fact it hits harder. When you start working with NARP yes it is hard and heavy – the feeling of the pain at the start and big – but by doing it – there is a way through – it does get transformed and gets less and less and less…hence why true healing occurs…

Absolutely you have to feel it, and the relief then will come, as it shifts with the process. So sit in, drop into it and take the tissue box and you will be well on the way to getting better…the key is to not self-avoid.

Mel xo

it is really important for all of us to understand – ‘there is no outside’, and what I mean by this is that every area of our life that we feel angst and pain and fear – because we do have the inner shift tool (QFH), we can go to the fear / pain and angst and shift it within ourself.

That is where the only true change does happen.

So therefore all of these blocks and fears that you are describing (which are very ‘normal’ and in fact anyone who has had your history would feel like this and experience life like this)- can be shifted within you – by taking them to a healing module and transforming that inner story within your subconscious (Inner Identity) which is continuing to play out emotionally and literally in your life.

Then everything on ‘the outside’ will change for you.

When we do have the ability to create inner transformational work, we don’t have to keep struggling, and trying to ‘beat’ the fear and the pain cognitively – which for our biggest fears and pain is very hard to do, and requires enormous willpower to ‘win’.

All you need to do is target excatly these fears with the goal setting MP3 in NARP and you will experience the relief, the release and see the enormous changes in your life.

I hope this helps.

Mel xo

I finished the module today. In the beginning, it was a bit overwhelming, so many exercises……..I was tempted to take the shortcut, it does not work. So I did the exercises step by step and followed the detailed instructions of the healing session. It all falls into place, it has its inner coherent logic, I just let myself flow with Melanie’s voice. The effect was powerful. I ended up with a 9 out of 10. I have the same body sensations as in NARP, heaviness in the beginning, some nervous tension in my stomach area and finally, profound relief and lightness. Melanie, this course is a masterpiece. I will progress slowly and thoroughly through the modules now. It is so worth it. Thanks so much for creating it. As a Swiss person, I do not get enthusiastic easily, we are a pragmatic tribe, but with regards to QFH I am!

Just thought of a good way to look at a protective barrier, which could be something like the ‘protective invisible shield’ used around the ‘star ships’ from the Star Trek movie, to protect the bad energy and predators from entering the ship or vessel. I remember in one of your QF sessions, you mention about imagining yourself as a Vessel, that has a protective shield around it.

hahaha! I am a star trek fan (although not obsessed) and as Spock says, ‘your human emotions are not logical’ how spot on is he! x

Interesting Mel I have not looked at ‘Self-sabotage’ and I think somehow I am doing just that, sub-consciously. I will look forward to receiving your email on some direction 🙂

When walking I clear a lot as I am open and ‘awake’ enough to let the good energy fill my cells. When I am doing NARP at night just before sleep, I tend to get uncomfortable from being in the one position too long and often just fall asleep. To do QF on a walk, I have my iPhone in my hand and my safe zone is a force field around me (like a bubble) so the bad energy escapes through the top of the bubble and the sunlight and light comes down through the outer layer. The ‘aura’ or force field acts like a barrier to repel out the bad energy and if something comes along, or I pass someone who I feel a negative charge on, I say to myself ‘I am safe in this space, and the outside has no power over me or my feelings’. It works and I feel at ease more when passing a situation that makes me uncomfortable. It is not quite working in my backyard as the space in invaded by others, so I do have trouble being out there and comfortable.

Lovely and warm today, in the mid 20’s, just right to go and try my new gym I am joining today. It is lovely and not too big, with beautiful layout that has very nice energy. It will be a new space I can go to and enjoy, relax and feel the workouts cleansing and strengthening my body. Yoga to finish is nice also.

xx 😀