Dear Mel,

Oh wow! I decided to come check the blog to see if the contest results had been declared yet. Was curious to read my reply here again and I am absolutely floored – sometime after this exercise and posting here, I uncovered an old Past Life memory around beliefs C), D), and E) in my contest entry around which I carried ENORMOUS guilt even though it was not my fault. It was an act of self defence and probably the most shocking and eye opening shift I’ve had – I never expected to uncover something from a past life!

So thank you once again dear Mel, I can see now how participating here led me to uncover that old wound. I now feel compassion for my past Life self and for myself for having carried such a heavy burden of allowing myself to be abused.

❤️❤️❤️

So, once I realized/ heard of Narcissism, I was stunned, then furious. Why do I have to learn about him, his mind, his issues? I’ve spent all my time focused on him to survive! Then your information shifted it- its not about him. Thank you. But I’m sooo tired of “working on me”. Been there done that. I’ve seen why I created him- being agoraphobic, how perfect to energetically “hire” someone to keep me isolated and in a cage. Brilliant on my part,. I’ve since detached from him, the mini-strokes are less frequent, hair stopped falling out, I don’t get entangled, I realize it useless to point out his “games”/ lies/ mental illness. I do not deserve this. i am worthy of being treated like a human being, with respect and honor and kindness.

I had an epiphany this morning… the “stuckness” is going from the known to the unknown. Who was I long ago? Who am I? Who would I be? How would I structure my days? THIS is what is keeping me locked in.

I’m 57 yrs old and haven’t had dreams in so long, and seriously wondering if it is too late to build a life.

How do you rebuild, is there life after this? A luxury would be to actually have money in my hand and go to the store and buy food that I liike, to wake up and wash myself, not the dirt on the white woodwork… then what? No friends or family or means of support. Then what?

Thank you, Mel…and thank you also for the opportunity to address these deep issues. I admire Neale Donald Walsh- read Conversations With God ?20 years ago and his name drew me in also. So good to listen to his words in light of my having found your work now. So it’s like a bundle of gifts all together that will keep me busy for a little while longer!
Respectfully, thankful from a deep and quiet place in me.
Suzi

Hi Lexi,

I am so pleased you have enjoyed the article!

And that you now really feel that the journey to freedom comes from the inside / out.

Wishing you divine healing and strength Lexi.

Mel xo

This has been one of the fantastic articles I have come across.

Everything you write about Narcissistic abuse is as though you have written about what I am goung through right now.
I was always a jovial outgoing person before I got married.
20 years of marriage has made me the opposite of what I used to be.
Everytime I interact with people my husband puts me down and is critical about how I conduct myself. I dread talking to people now. I am always wary about what I have to say.
I have lost my identity. I always feel I am being judged.
shifting our core beliefs is the only solution.
I always feel the trauma in my chest. Some kind of a tightness.

The second belief that one has to give in to earn love is what I have lived with. It’s miserable to live this way.
shifting the core beliefs makes a lot of sense.
It is an uphill task but the only way which I have been working on. It doesnt happen over night and needs to be done with diligence.
Thank you so much for your mission!
God bless you

Lexi

Thank you Melanie 🙂

Hi Suzie,

you are very welcome, and I am so pleased I could help 🙂

I ADORE what you have said here:

“my life is becoming MY life and what were dark corners are now drenched with light and with hope.”

You have done a wonderful job of identifying your beliefs, and the connection to how you have been showing up …

Fantastic spot on awareness!

Ohhhh I LOVE The shifts that have come through for you!

How gorgeous for you Suzi!

Keep up the GREAT work!

Mel xo

Hi Jan D,

Wow … you have really got down to the Core Beliefs Jan … brilliant, brilliant job!!

And such powerful connections to how you have been showing up.

Gosh … isn’t this one so true!!

“anticipating rejection before it even occurs (and of course, then, it does!)”

Jan, what incredible feelings you are discussing in your shifts …

It is so lovely what has happened within you … and I know it will keep going for you.

Jan thank you so much for your incredibly thoughtful recognition of others – the other beautiful souls, who have participated publicly and behind the scenes.

And thank you Jan for your lovely words for me.

The greatest gift for me Jan is seeing people, as you have done, take this work on.

It fills my heart and soul with such joy every day.

So please know – THANK you, and keep shining your beautiful light dear Lady 🙂

Mel xo

Hi Tracy,

you are very welcome.

Thank you for your share, and I am so happy for you that you felt a shift!

Mel xo