Hey Yap… Cool stuff. Who does MDMA therapy?? Thx.

Stephen,
I really appreciate your message. I was actually just sharing with a person whom I had stopped on the side of the road to change a flat tire. I was sharing that I continue to receive a high vibrational energy and it just feels my soul with such an overwhelming sense of joy and liberation and it’s just a matter of time that the truth sets my son free from the web of lies and control that his mom been casting upon him. The best feeling is knowing that the truth is behind the scenes getting ready to showcase itself! I can feel the energy flowing through my soul and I just keep my mind free from negativity and keep feeding my soul with unconditional love for thyself… The end of the narc movie and the unveiling of a father and his persistence in sharing the unconditional love and devotion that he has for his son, life is so wonderful and remember that the truth will always set you free! My son and I are looking forward to enjoying our new found freedom together , a freedom that we dont have to look over our shoulders wondering if we are being spied upon by the narc because she will be out of the picture… God is Great ! I am so thankful that I had this experience with narc because it allows me to share my experiences with my son so that I can plant the seed and educate him on living a life free from Narcissistic Abuse. Luv you son!!

What energy work did you ? Kanika

I realised I’m a vulnerable type narc. With borderline probably. I had severe diagnosed MDD and I have diagnosed adhd. I suffered from childhood traumas(beaten by teacher in 1st grade elementary school bullied ostracised etc). I went to therapy and used meds to try to solve the depression. I used weed before which suppressed my depression until I quit. Each time I quit I had a major mood swing. Then this developed apathy and anhedonia.

I had my first relationship and this is where I realised I’m full of shit and I’m so much like father who I dislike and he is 100 percent grandoise narc. I felt helpless. I always avoided therapy and being vulnerable. I never imagined I was NPD tbh. I started going to the therapy without hope xi just wanted to change so I could save my relationship. I was dumped. But I kept going. Because I was suicidal. I was given a med, atypical asri.

I quit weed too since it suppresses my emotions and depression.
While on meds and therpahy I had mdma therapy. My meds don’t interact badly with mdma on standart doses. With mdma iam fully changed.

With mdma therapy I let go of all. I realised there are 2 persons in me. Ego(character) and real self. Real self is core filled with love and mercy. Ego is constructed by family and traumas. For the first time I could accept myself as who I am and love myself, not judge and embrace.

I forgave everything and everyone including myself. My depression is gone thank to mdma therapy. Then I realised I have narcissm and probably I had border line. Because before I would see people either superior to me or inferior to me. Those who valued me I saw inferior thsoe who neglected me I saw them superior. I never had an equal partner as a friend. Now I can see things more clearly. How I had grandoise thinking under communal narcissm. How I kept imagining my ideal self everyday, how rich I would be so that people would respect and I would feel worthy and secure.

I still have some black and white thinking. Still struggling to empathise (but I’m much better) and love myself and others.

So I may be a cured case. Or reduced. I still have issues with Fear and confrontation. But I’m much better than what I was 10 years ago. You could bully me and make me feel worthless shit then I would imagine about my perfect future and I would ease myself. But now if you bully me I would probably feel sorry for you. Because of this, yes I’m a narc, perfectionist, adhd, former major depressed person who never hurt anyone. Yes. I always walk on the eggshells to not hurt people. So I have issues. It took years to accept that I’m one of those… But I wouldn’t bully you… So I would be like how pathetic you must be to project anger and bully someone else and I would feel sorry for them for what they don’t know. And their irrational helpless coping mechanism.

I hope to recover fully.
I think narcissm is curable. But there is a caveat. I didn’t realise I was one. I avoided therapy until I would kill myself. And I had random mdma therapy changed everything! I would go there maybe with 10 years of therapy. Imagine just imagine. When I let go of all. The I realised… So I wasn’t aware of my narcissm in the first place. I had my traumas resolved and let go of everything first. Then I realised the narricsm. So maybe metal health professionals should change their perspective. The Npd won’t come near accepting or Being aware of their situation. First you must tend to their wounds and give them therapy. Then after some therapy you must give them mdma therapy snr guide them to speak all and forgive all.

Then maybe they will realise how big of a narcissist they were^are. It’s all about thr self worth… Traumas, neglection, over praise and broken vision. Full of fake illusions..

Problem with narcissm is, they hate themselves. And without full love and acceptance you can’t even change a single thing. So it’s impossible to achive anything without therpahy and mdma therapy.

Maybe another method could be :(for persistent) give them 5g dried mushrooms and talk about someone (actually talk about them but not directly. Talk about your imaginary friend X) then let them relate with that person. Tell them until they will see themselves in the mirror. Then tell them that person x had traumatic events, neglection etc etc(according to the patients history). Then tell them this led to shape their ego as narcissm to protect their broken self esteem. Then make them realise its the who is X. And they have narcissm. It will kill the ego. Give mdma and start the mdma therapy.

I enjoyed you sharing your story. Thank you for putting it out there. I honestly think that everyone has things they need to deal with. Trauma creates people to develope coping mechanisms too get them thru. They are not always good habits that are formed. I commend anyone looking to better themselves. You’ve got this and can beat this. I don’t believe what everyone says that once your a narcissist you’ll always be one. It depends on how focused you are on working on healing. Best of luck.

Brian, Thank you for posting.
I realized that I am toxic a few days after my wife told me in Oct 2019 that we are separating and I will be moving out indefinitely. I was already depressed and entered uncontrolled collapse. But God, he caught me, cut the chains, and put me back on the path of life at the very beginning. I have been self reflecting, reading, praying, and seeking help from almost anywhere. I dug so far as to reach narcissism and considered that I had committed the unpardonable sin and was destined to eternal torment; but I had hope for change because of this awareness. Every day there are new or repeated realizations about the insidiousness of my narcissistic traits. These traits have infected everything about my mind and motivations; I find myself questioning every thought or motivation.
I know now that I have lived a life of narcissism. I don’t want to be that person anymore. I want to love others selflessly while being content with myself.
It’s like I have been sent back to start over after 49 years. I feel like I’m an infant who needs the support and teaching of some emotionally validating parents. As I write this, it occurs to me that my therapist and well grounded people in my life willing to walk with me can be those guiding parent figures.
I hold onto this, that God changes our hearts so we can have our minds renewed. This brings hope we can change as our wounds are identified and healed so we can learn to love in a real authentic selfless way.

Thank you for your words. I’m working on the healing and it’s very painful. But it’s necessary I want to heal. I’m praying every day that I can make baby steps towards healing my trauma.

Hi Beau, I see you posted your comment in 2015 (it’s December 2019 that I’m reading it)… Just wondered how you were doing? Did you manage to make any progress towards healing? I only ask as I am such one who has abandoned the true self. I know this as every once in a while it surfaces and it’s truly wonderful for those brief moments. Much love>. Richard