Melanie Tonia Evans

How We Become Better Parents As We Heal

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Written By   Melanie Tonia Evans

The reason I really wanted to explore this topic in an article is because I am very passionate about our children and future generations. I so believe the shift in consciousness on our planet needs to start with us, as the caretakers of our children and their future children’s emotional evolution.

So many parents try to fix and help their children deal with narcissistic abuse, but don’t realise that operating from a tormented, agonised emotional state truly makes matters worse. It grants the narcissist more bullets to shoot you with and incites them to use your children as weapons of war.

Making it the highest priority to heal ourselves and lead the way for our children, not only helps diffuse situations with the narcissist, it also grants our children the best emotional platform to learn how to be self-partnered and self-generative and evolve and grow through the situation – profoundly.

This article is not only about how we can assist our children in narcissistic abuse, it is also about how the deep transformations of ourselves sets up enormous changes for the better in the way we parent – enabling us to inspire our children and their future generations in the most positive of ways.


Giving Up Co-dependency and Victimhood

Our co-dependent models, and previous unconscious emotional programming caused us to not only stay stuck in these following beliefs, but to also pass them on to the people we most love and care for.

  • If I can fix something outside of myself I will feel better on the inside.
  • My emotional health is reliant on conditions outside of me.
  • Life is an “outside in” affair – meaning that my emotional health is determined by “what happens to me by external forces”, and
  • I am unaware that if I become an emotional state – by purposefully growing and evolving myself – then all of my life will start reflecting that change accordingly.

We may think that narcissism is dire in its impact to our children and not realise just how damaging our own co-dependency is.

When we start becoming energetically responsible we understand that narcissists can’t and don’t change – because the very nature of narcissism is the nil ability to genuinely have the self-honesty and vulnerability to face and work through childhood traumas that are creating the maladapted behaviour.

Hurt people hurt people, and hurt people never get better and behave better until they take full 100% personal responsibility to self-partner, meet and heal their own emotional wounds.

Period …

Therefore, as parents recovering from narcissistic abuse, we have to understand that the future of our children needs to be independent of what the narcissist will and won’t do.

The more we try to control the uncontrollable and force the impossible – attempt to make the narcissist fix and change what they have done – the more we are not taking responsibility for healing our own wounds and the longer we remain horrifically unavailable and emotionally precarious to our children.

In the years that I have been involved in helping people heal from narcissistic abuse, I have been intimately privy to the plights of their children as well. And I have consistently viewed that if one parent works at becoming a model of healing consciousness and leading the way with their own emotional evolution, then their children usually follow.

This is non-reliant on the narcissistic parent, and profoundly proves time and time again that when the non-narcissistic parent heals their own connections to abuse – and the powerlessness of co-dependency and victimisation that goes with that – then big changes start to occur.

No longer does the parent previously victimised hold the narcissist responsible for his or her life. Rather, they have become invested in their own healing, growth and recovery – recognising that the stuff that the narcissist profoundly brought to their attention was the already existing wounds of their own inner young unfinished emotional business.

Thus, no longer does this person try to force the narcissist to be anything in order to make their life different. Instead they have become a generator of “a life” that is far superior and real to the one even before they handed so much power and responsibility to the narcissist.

With this new self-empowered orientation that no longer feeds the narcissist narcissistic supply, the narcissist begins to lose the ability to hook, derail, or manipulate them.

Bullies cease to bully when they don’t get the rise they seek in the first place. Because a bully (a wounded inner child) loses the ability to shoot people with their own fears when those fears are up-levelled.

When people detach from the narcissist on emotional, physical, spiritual, financial and mental levels then the children are nowhere near as affected either.

Truly …

It has a powerful flow-on effect.


The Most Dangerous Recipe For Our Children

I have stated before in my article series that the most dangerous recipe for a child to grow up to become an abuser or someone who will be abused, is the combination of a narcissistic parent and a toxic victimised one.

Both parents are horrifically unhealthy, yet I promise, the most severe subconscious wounding that I have worked on with people, who were abused children, usually comes from the toxic victimised parent.

When I have stated that to the parents who are determined to hang on to hate and victimisation and who are invested in fighting for their own victimisation and powerlessness, I have been demonised as “victim bashing”.

And that’s okay – I get it how being toxically stuck in victim mode allows us to mirror the narcissist in so many ways a) I will not be responsible for my own emotional traumas, and b) the state of my life is someone else’s fault and not my responsibility to sort out.

I was there, and it almost destroyed not only my soul and ended my life, but also pushed my son away from me. He got heavily involved in all sorts of self-destructive behaviour and almost ended his life too.

Not only had he lived the trauma of narcissistic abuse with a step-father – watching my disintegration – he also had an angry, addicted, demented mother who was horribly unavailable, incredibly toxic and terrible to be around.

What on earth are any of us thinking if we think our children need to have the mature sophistication to cut us some slack, believe in us, band with us and protect us?

WE are the parent!

And if we want our children to get better and our world to get better, we have to be prepared to heal ourselves first and foremost so that we no longer are living our life as wounded children emotionally – expecting narcissists or our children to fix us – when it is really is our own job.

I know it’s so hard when feeling victimised to accept this, but what else is there to do if we REALLY care for and love our children.

Surely … surely we have got to care and love ourselves enough to get well FIRST.

When I finally understood how I was hurting my son so much by being a self-absorbed victim, it was a huge slap to the face. And a huge wakeup call to the dire and dangerous results that occur in our lives when, as adult humans, we hold someone else responsible for our life, our emotions, our outcomes and our evolution.

It creates terrible results … not just to ourselves … the results are catastrophic for our children.

This is the path of the victim, who not only sentences themselves to a lifetime of toxic resentment, blame, shame and a diminished existence, but also condemns their child because he or she misses out on a healthy emotional foundation as well – which only creates very painful lessons and issues for them in the future.

I know that if I hadn’t stopped my victimisation and holding the narcissist responsible for my life and embarked on a profound journey of self-partnering and self-healing instead, my son possibly would never have made it and certainly would not be the incredible young man he is today.

I hear so many victims screaming and jumping up and down and trying to “save” their children whilst having no intention of healing their own original traumas that were the unconscious reasons we sustained and were hooked into abuse in the first place.

Here is the fabulous analogy – which is powerful … in an aeroplane in a time of emergency you put YOUR oxygen mask on first.

Quantum Law (Emotion / Energetic Law) is absolute and is the very rules of “How We Create” – we can’t influence anything positively in our life from a place of negative emotion.

Whenever we try to the negative emotion (e-motion – energy in motion) statement is: “I am NOT this thing I seek to create”.

Which will always means we get “more of” what we are REALLY being, no matter what we are doing to try and compensate for that.

There is no more tragic way this can play out then if we are trying to control, influence and fix our children when we are not sound or healthy ourselves.

All of this interference, no matter how well-meaning it may be, is unwholesome energy that is conditional and which your child will not take to lightly, happily or healthily.

Because it wasn’t healthy in the first place.

Our worry and fear and pain can only and will only cause more worry, fear and pain.

If we still carry all the negative emotions we took on from narcissistic abuse – the resentment, anger, helplessness, guilt, torment, fear and powerlessness and then try to elevate our children to a heathier state of being, we are fighting a losing battle.

Truly …

This may sound terrible – but I promise you it is the truth – you will only make matters worse.  Plus you completely run the risk of being further smeared and discredited and abused by the narcissist and then fuel the narcissist up to be more determined to use the children as pawns against you.

You may then be at severe risk of parent alienation.

A Quantum Law of Life is this: No-one can genuinely love, respect, connect to and honour you until you sort out these states in relationship with yourself – regardless of what anyone has or hasn’t done to you in the past.

Your relationship with you is your job, and then all other relationships come from that.

Which means the cleaning up of your own internal traumas so that you can fully love and accept and honour yourself. That is what self-partnering is all about.

Your children will not love, respect you, be guided by you or connect healthily with you until you love, respect, and connect lovingly with yourself – and the only way we get to this level of personal evolution is by addressing the wounds and programming that is inside us that is not allowing us to do so.


Letting Go

Letting go – meaning detaching and allowing – is initially incredibly counter-intuitive.  Wanting to force our will on things and fix and control is one of the biggest issues of co-dependency.

This is one of the greatest traps that led us into and sustained us in narcissistic abuse – the trying to force a narcissist to heal our fears and pain – instead of letting go and taking full responsibility for them ourselves.

We were anxious, triggered and hooked in when the narcissist targeted our insecurities. We had stunted ability to self-partner, connect with ourselves, hold our own emotional energy, self-soothe and know abuse was not our reality.

We accepted a level of “love” that mirrored the level of love that we had at the time with ourselves – a love that was conditional, fear based, anxious and not centred in emotional solidness.

Really, we were unconsciously emotionally showing up as wounded children trying to force a “parent” (the narcissist) to this time stop hurting us and really love us.

When we haven’t healed our young original wounds, we inflict the same anxiousness and control onto our children. We don’t feel safe enough to hold our own energy and allow things to play out. We lecture, prescribe, jump in and try to change things in order to feel better.

Then, what we discover is the more we try usually the worse things get. Things don’t sort out the way we want them to, regardless of how hard we try to make them.

All because we are not working with the Quantum Law of Life. In this state we do not realise that no amount of “doing” will ever compensate for a defunct “beingness”, and that we are never showing up and generating life from mere doing – how we and it all unfolds, rather, is according to our emotional inner state.

In regard to our children, stopping our over-involvement is an even more difficult task because our natural instinct is to defend and protect. And in no way am I saying this is not appropriate when necessary – but doing so from a highly energised negative state of beingness does not work, and is in fact incredibly detrimental when narcissists are involved with your children.

It just hands the narcissist bullets to shoot you with and makes your children even more susceptible to be used as weapons in warfare.

I have never seen one case – not one – of an irate, victimised, vocal, devastated, terrorised, angry, incensed, righteous parent fighting for their children have ANY affect against a narcissist. In fact I have only ever seen their children devastated further as the narcissist gleefully lines him or her up for more abuse via the children.

Because that’s what narcissists do – find your weakest links and hit them hard.

Whereas, universes apart for these results, I have seen the parents who have worked on themselves diligently to detach, love themselves back to health and not give the narcissist any energy and become non-judgemental, loving, healthy parents, experience the narcissist losing interest in trying to use the kids as a tool to abuse.

It’s energetic – truly.

Narcissistic abuse is a soul-evolution lesson absolutely.

And the times we need to remember that the MOST is when our children are involved.

Because, we can stop the buck at ourselves. This happens when we heal the wounds of our previous generations – the ones that embedded in our subconscious and led us into abuse unconsciously. Then we can lead our children out of the darkness and into the light – regardless of whether or not they still have a narcissistic parent.

What is appropriate is to become the most emotionally resolved, healthiest parent you can be – non-conditional on ANYTHING outside you having to change to get there, so that you can be the best, most solid, calm, loving role model possible.

This means letting go of the anxious tendency to try to control and fix everything for your children.

And the irony is the more we do that, and the more we work on healing ourselves, we discover that organically things start to improve significantly.

Our children get better simply by being in our presence.


The Soul Lesson

When we understand bigger deeper evolution reasons – we resonate with deep truths in our cells which help us let go.

We know that our children, at a soul level, have chosen their parents and their journey for specific reasons. It was all a part of their soul desire to heal and finalise soul contracts in order to evolve and raise levels of consciousness.

Whenever we state “something should not be this way” we are not allowing, and in fact our resistance against it means its influence will get even more cemented in our life until we can accept it.

When we see the bigger picture and understand deeply “there is a loving soul reason of perfection for all of this”, and when we start accepting and working with “what is”, it starts to transform, unravel and heal – and then it is no longer needed in our experience.

Yet, if we set up “this is wrong” and we pass that onto our children also, they too will be plagued and chained in resistance and doomed (literally) to repeat abuse / abused cycles until they start working with acceptance and allowing. None of it will leave their experience until they bless and begin their personal evolution and growth as a result of the experiences that their souls have called forth.

Our children did not necessarily come into this lifetime to just have it all “easy”, just as it was never our job to try to wrap them in cotton wool and protect them from “soul growth”.

It is the children who have been overly insulated by their parents who have a much harder time dealing with the inevitable challenges of life (soul lessons). These individuals have very little emotional resilience, and grave difficultly in self-partnering and self-soothing – meaning they will hand power over to life and others.

Additionally, this is recipe to suffer shame (I’m not good enough to live my life) and dissociation (I’m not capable enough to live my life) which then creates the seeking of “protectors” to take responsibility of their life for them.

Parents not allowing and guiding children through their growth lessons is a powerful and dangerous recipe for them to seek “parents” (people who appear as protectors who are in fact abusers) instead of being able to show up as healthy adults self-partnered in their bodies able to navigate and generate healthy partnerships.

I truly believe that when we accept “there is a reason for this that IS for our children’s highest and greatest good” that we can start working with what is / has happened in a much more positive way, rather than pushing against it, fueling it and making it worse.


Two Scenarios

I want to give you a snapshot of two different scenarios I have seen regularly. One from a parent not leading the way, and then one who does.


Scenario One


“How was Mum today?” (Already triggered, angry and antsy – and hates his child being with the narcissist).


“She was angry and snapped at me. She was on the phone the whole time texting.”

PARENT (In obsession about who she was texting, and angry that she could be so selfish).

“That is so wrong that she does that. When is she going to be better to you? I would never treat you like that. Why does she want to see you if she isn’t going to act like a parent?!”

Scenario Two


“How was your day today?” (Inviting connection and conversation).


“Dad was angry and snapped at me. He was on the phone off and on talking to his girlfriend, arguing.”

PARENT (non-triggered and totally unaffected).

“How did that make you feel honey?”


“Really upset that he doesn’t care about me.”


“You so know don’t you that that is no reflection on you. Your Dad is like that sometimes because that’s him – that’s what he does because that’s the best he can do – but in no way does that mean that you are not worth hanging with and granting attention to.

Are you okay? Do you need to talk about this anymore?”


“I’m fine Mum.”


“Would you like steak or chicken for dinner honey?”

In the first scenario this child is suffering the agony of two parents at war – both speaking adversely about each other. The night is full of tension and pain and the victimised parent is on the phone to family and friends planning the next talk to the solicitor and the child feels abandoned, confused, hurt and angry and retreats to his room to get away from the toxic energy.

In the second scenario the child’s feeling have been acknowledged and validated, and there is no toxic overlay of judgement from the parent – just a positive reinforcing of the child’s Inner Identity – and a healthy night of dinner, homework and some TV together.

No tension, no resentment.

Just love.


Getting Real in Order to Heal

I see both versions of parents all the time. More profoundly I have been both versions of parents.

The first is the usual result of narcissistic abuse, and the second is the result when the parent has committed full-heartedly to healing and working on themselves after narcissistic abuse.

I’ve had parents tell me, as a part of their justifications to hang on to their inner torment, that they can’t fall apart and work on themselves because they need to be there for their children.


One of the most positive things my son ever saw me do was to have the humility and self-love to meet my own wounds with total self-honesty. Because, when I did, I dropped the victimisation, masks and defences that I had been holding onto.

The ones that had been damaging both of us so much.

He saw me be raw, be vulnerable and cry rather than be angry. He saw me lovingly nurture and take responsibility for myself whilst I worked through my fragile inner wounding.

This granted him the relief of this message “None of us are perfect, and we don’t have to be. What we do need to do is be with ourselves and love our wounds back to health.”

I gave him permission to be real.

And thank goodness I did, because none of us ever get well if we don’t do this. What a tragedy it is that we have all been programmed to self-disconnect, hide our wounds, put masks on and be “strong” for everyone else.

What good has that done when truly all we have been doing is bashing people up, and continuing to get bashed up by the wounds we had never attended to?

Hurt people hurt people, and they get hurt.

The pattern has to stop if we are going to get well, help our children get well, and create a different world which can start healing from the insanity and get well.


The Ways We Parent Differently When We Heal

Here is a list of the most significant changes to our parenting when we take the responsibility to heal our own wounds.

  • We stop holding our children responsible for our emotions and take responsibility for them ourselves.
  • We stop trying to fix things for our children.
  • We accept and bless the growth lessons our children go through.
  • We support situations with love instead of judgement.
  • We teach our children by example that their life and emotions are never dependent on what a particular person is or isn’t doing.
  • We start showing up vulnerably and honestly and stop trying to appear “perfect”.
  • We don’t try to compete for our children’s love or affection.
  • We don’t need our children to think a certain way, or be a certain way in order for us to be our own level of love and health.
  • We apologise and are genuinely remorseful and humble about our previous defunct parenting to our children.
  • We admit and apologise to our children when we are wrong or hurtful from here on.
  • We do the work to let go of any guilt we are carrying regarding what our children went through – knowing this is not healthy moving forward.
  • We allow and encourage our children to have a voice and express their feelings without judgement.
  • We have boundaries with our children that don’t involve lecturing and prescribing. We leave out the emotional content and deliver lovingly and firmly.
  • We stop blaming and shaming our children’s Inner Identities and instead guide them in ways that empower their inner emotional containers.
  • We grant trust, and space and “see” and “feel” that our children have the incredible inner resources and wisdom to find their way.
  • We empower our children to find and become a healthy resource to themselves. (We may want our children to “want” us in their lives, but it is never healthy to bring up our children to “need” us. The highest level of self-mastery and love is to feel totally comfortable to have the people you love not need you.)

I personally experienced my parenting change beyond description. The healthier I became, and still become, the more loving and authentic I show up, as well as the more stable and mature.

When we no longer have our young wounds screaming inside of us, we naturally become love instead of fear. We start acting like a healthy self-partnered adult instead of a needy wounded child and the results are truly incredible – regardless of what the narcissist is or isn’t doing.

I have seen, just like my son, children develop in incredible evolved ways when one parent leads the way. Even children who are being co-parented with a narcissist.

I don’t believe their soul gets it wrong. I truly believe all of our souls have a higher calling, not only into our greatest ability to be authentic love without fear, pain and judgement but to also fulfil the purpose and soul mission that we came here to achieve.

What better way to anchor Light when you have been exposed to such Darkness? What better way to heal yourself and the collective of the illusions that have crippled humankind for centuries than to be in the trenches of unconsciousness?

The children I know, who have been or still are exposed to narcissists who have a parent evolving themselves and anchoring light and personal power, are amazing.

They are some of the wisest, most compassionate, astounding evolved souls you could ever hope to meet.

These children will deeply understand and change this world for the better. They will not try to force change from a futile position of fear, pain and victimisation – but rather they will heal separation, and create true authentic connections from their hearts and powerful personal authenticity.

Our children will be the bringers of Unity Consciousness as self-partnered, self-generative leaders.

These are the children of our future who will do amazing things to raise the consciousness of this planet – simply by being Who They Are.

Your child can become this – but only if you lead the way first …


I have only one line left to write about the most vital message of all – and it is three words.

Heal Yourself First.

If you know, as a parent, it is your time to heal your wounds to become a healthy self-generative role model to your children I’d love you to join me in the next 3 Keys To Thriving After Narcissistic Abuse Webinar – where you can access profound workshopping in order to heal, as well as experience a 3 hour deeply transformative tele-class.

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35 Thoughts on How We Become Better Parents As We Heal
    Natasha M
    November 6, 2015

    Melanie – I so appreciate all you do and your wise guidance. Please outline the difference between what we need to do logistically about potential harm being done to our kids vs. what we need to let go (for maximum healing).


    – The narrcissist ex demanded and threatened full custody in order to avoid child support, so is de facto co-parenting yet refuses to communicate or confer on decision-making and continues to make unilateral decisions.

    – His new girlfriend/woman/wife and her family/friends are toxic influences (drug addicts, sex workers, criminals, alcoholics, etc.)

    -He dumps the kids on the new woman and/or family members he claimed to despise (and who are not ideal caregivers).

    -The narcissist ex is lying, distorting and/or withholding crucial info to the courts, friends, family, school, counselors, community, etc.

    – The narcissist ex is not holding up his financial end (both legal and legitimate).

    – The narcissist ex is accusing the other parent of nefarious activity when in fact HE is perpetuating it.

    – The narcissist ex is thwarting, preventing, and creating obstacles for the children’s lives (not following through on promises, not socializing with the child’s circle, missing important events and dates, losing and not returning vital items (like athletic gear and costumes), not planning ahead cohesively, and refusing to allow positive steps to be taken (counseling, recreation, consistent activities, etc.)

    Any suggestions

      November 7, 2015

      my aunt went thru this. she gave daddy the kids. he cudnt even get the kids to school on time, let alone fed every nite. in 3 weeks he helped HER get into an apt so they cud come bak to be with her. he never threatened to take the kids again, altho he was still a narcississtic prick who also wudnt pay support. 20yrs later, one kid dead even…he still owes her thousands in bak support.
      and the kids wud lay down their life for their mom.
      it CAN happen this way. it does happen this way.

        November 7, 2015

        ..not that it will be same time frame, etc for you but it CAN.

      November 7, 2015

      I’d like advice on these issues, too. Some are exactly what’s happening in my life, too.

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Natasha M,

      truly, truly this is what I get asked all the time, “what” to do practically to combat all the normal atrocious criminal, deceptive and damaging things that narcissists do.

      Natasha I cannot emphasize enough “emotion first” … that is the ENTIRE key … because if we don’t change our emotional set point in regard to “what is happening” then “what is happening” can’t change.

      Every single one of us experienced the crazy painful elements of N-abuse that we were completely powerless to defend and stop – until we started healing ourselves and then saw them organically shift because a) we stopped being affected b) the N chopped off from N supply had to take the rubbish elsewhere and c) The Field (life) started to provide evidence of our new uplevelled beliefs.

      Please come into this webinar group to really deeply understand why

      Mel xo

    Shannon Gilmour
    November 6, 2015

    Thank you so much for this article. It is exactly what I need to hear and understand, and it is the most difficult lesson for me at this time. I can feel the change happening and the shift in perception happening right now as I breathe in your words. I love my children so much, and I want to protect them so much, that I was hooked into the negative dynamic. I see and know now the essential foundation of healing myself, so I can be present and whole. I’ve got my work to do. 🙂
    How glorious and exciting that the work is going to help me LOVE more and fear less. 😉
    I am so grateful to you Melanie for sharing your healing journey with me, so I can heal too.

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Shannon,

      you are so welcome.

      That is wonderful that you are having a shift in perception away from the fear and pain into the truth and love.

      Reading your words fills my heart with joy, and I am thrilled you are healing for you and your children.

      Mel xo

    November 6, 2015

    I have experienced no pain greater than the feeling that l could not protect my children from their narcissitic step-father. Because if l tried to intervene in his abusive treatment of them he would then heap more emotional abuse on them telling them they were the cause of our marital conflict. I did not know the term ‘narcissist’ back then, and l could not get a handle on what was happening in our family. We lived in a small, isolated community where we were outsiders and l had no idea where to turn for help. Eventually child protection services landed on our doorstep, and all hell broke loose. My children are in their twenties now and have nothing to do with their step-father. I feel as if my healing joirney is only now beginning, and l hope and pray it can still benefit them too.

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Maria,

      please know that when we up-level, even when our children are older, the results are incredible for them.

      It is never too late.

      Bless you for wanting to heal.

      Mel xo

    Lorraine Kadic
    November 6, 2015

    Dear Mel,
    Thank you! I think this is your best article to date on how best we can help our children! To live our lives surrendered to the Power of the Universe, instead of coming from a place of fear and negativity, in regards to our parenting. To let go of control and fixing, whilst keeping the healthy boundaries in place. I still have some resistance against my current situation, so i feel the challenge to bless it and accept it. I can feel myself on the cusp of ‘getting it’, and it feels so exciting to me. Especially the bit at the end where you described how amazing our kids will be, IF we heal and self-partner. What a powerful motivator!

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Lorraine,

      thank you and I am so pleased you enjoyed this article.

      That is wonderful that you are excited about the new you, raising consciousness, the effect on our children and the creating of our new world.

      It is such an exciting movement!

      Mel xo

    Nikki Weigel A
    November 6, 2015

    Hey Mel,

    Thank you for addressing this as you know this has been the struggle for me. I am both comforted and perplexed by this article.

    I find comfort because I see how truly far I have come. I am the second example of how to parent. I AM all the things you listed of what happens when you truly commit to healing yourself first. This makes me feel blessed, amazing, and incredibly proud of myself. I has been a long road and it isn’t over yet (it never will be). I will always be healing and committed to my journey of deep self love. I’ve found THE way to live a life that is meaningful and happy. So thank you for the validation.

    What perplexed me was that the issues are still there. I was hoping to find answers in your article, and I didn’t. I have little to no contact. I focus inside and truly, DEEPLY believe that all the work lies in me…yet my boys are being increasingly abused. And as a parent, that is hard to see. It is hard to hear them when they come home and tell me what has happened it is hard when they ask me why I won’t make it stop.

    I answer almost exactly like your example, which again, makes me very proud. Always looking to connect with them, not to pump for answers or hold the ex accountable.

    And in my living and modeling a healing life, I’ve seen exactly what you are saying…they begin to heal. But they come home and tell me that they were strong and told Daddy not to do something that made them feel a certain way (not because I said to do that, because they were being healed beings) and they were held up against a wall. So it seems like the more healing the see and experience in my home, the better it is here but the worse it gets for them over there.

    Remember, my boys are also special needs, so there are some systems involved here which the ex has not had much involvement with but because they are seeing signs of abuse now…are getting involved. And school has contact too. So they throw NARC supply his way.

    I’m just wondering if it’s possible that the kids give him NARC supply and the services give him NARC supply…and them healing makes it worse. So my healing at this point is only impacting my relationship with the kids and my relationship with the NARC…but no long their relationship with him, because it seems to have taken on this life of its own to a point as I’ve really shut down any negative feed I give that but it’s still gone way more abusive than it ever was.

    Please help me to understand this. And thank you again for EVERYTHING. ?

    Love you,

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Nikki,

      wow thank you so much for this post and for sharing your heart. It has been so incredible watching your journey unfold in the ways that it has … and I know you have done such an incredible job of evolving yourself.

      Yes it is difficult what your boys are going through. Nikki have you tried Quanta Freedom Healing using your body as proxy for your boys? Please let me know and then we can take this conversation to the next level.

      Mel xo

        Nikki Weigel A
        November 10, 2015

        I have been doing the QFH but I guess I’m not sure how to use it in that way. I’d be happy to learn!!

        And thank you. Watching my own journey has been incredible! ?

    November 7, 2015

    Thank you Mel for your insightful and spot on blog. So true healing your self first . I took full responsibility for my part in the parenting dynamic and realised how I had been toxic and a victim. Up leveling my inner wounds enabled me to see clearly and let my children go . My son began to break free and has grown into a healthy self assured young. My daughter still struggles because she can no longer manipulate me . I have no idea whether she will wake up . I simply accept and love her . My daughters behaviour pushed me over the edge to freedom .
    Lots of love Sarah. X

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Sarah,

      you are so welcome.

      I love your unconditional orientation and how true it took some A.I.D. to push us over the edge.

      Mel xo

    November 7, 2015

    Oh my goodness, Mel…so true. There is no more painful experience than seeing our child/children in pain, and as outraged, angry, worried, upset, fearful that may make us feel; there needs, for the sake of our children, to be a calming down. It feels important to me to never underestimate the depth of our children’s love for both parents despite our many faults. Running the other parent down…even if it feels “justified” wounds our children to the very soul, and will not endear them to us.
    Rise above the upset and be their safe place in the storm, and your relationship with your children will thrive.
    Although, intellectually we all know this…it can feel impossible to enact when in the midst of the storm when so much is hurled at us. If you can do it on your own, that’s great, but I really needed help in managing my emotions and keeping my priorities straight, and that is why I am thankful to have invested in the NARP program. And here’s the thing…my finances were extremely tight at the time, and I mean to the penny, but to this day I feel it was the best investment I have ever made. Truly life altering. I learned that I AM in control of my own emotions and I learned how to step away from the madness and work things through. I learned how to return to a place of peaceful equanimity, and despite what was going on around me to react from a place of love. And interestingly, when I took responsibility for myself I cut the last thread, and was forever off his hooks.
    I can only add that “letting go” means not taking the emotional bait and reacting in ways that are not in your own or anyone else’s best interest. When you let go this way you will find yourself better able to establish reasonable boundaries and take action to protect your own interests and your children’s interests, and you will do this with grace and dignity.

    It is possible to emerge from this experience feeling enriched with deeper appreciation for self, and stronger relationships with others.

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Barbara,

      thank you so much for your caring insightful share that I so hope an inspire other parents.

      I agree that without the deeper subconscious work it is very difficult to untangle the pain and the obsession and the hooks, and it certainly does take the work for us to get there.

      However when we do we realise a freedom and a True Self that we were never able to access before this – even though it was such a journey to get there.

      I adore how you have described this, and how your investment in you, in so many ways has produced the results you needed.

      Bless you.

      Mel xo

    November 7, 2015

    I have a question : is it possible to truly self-heal, and in turn allow your children to heal if you remain with the narcissist, even if your children have grown up and left home and have no contact with the narcissist (step parent)? Can they really detach and heal, if you are still attached (physically, emotionally)?

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 7, 2015

      Hi Sarah,

      if I can be really honest with you – when we stay with narcissists this is always a statement of how we are not willing to let go to become our own source of love, approval and security.

      We truly are still a wounded inner child trying to create the narcissist (abuser) as a “parent”.

      This doesn’t model self-partnering and self-generating for our children.

      Mel xo

    November 8, 2015

    Hi Melanie,

    I am a narp member and it is fantastic! Highly recommend to all!!!!!

    I did a pretty good job of detaching, etc before learning about Narp after reading Gary Zukav book “The Seat of the Soul”. It certainly is helped me to understand “this is a soul journey”.for everyone including my children.

    The thing about narp is….it’s crazy how it resets your energy field….like magic. ( yes i am a work in progess sti) and getting better and better). Now that I’m getting clearer i am going to reread The Seat of the Soul…and let my children just be trusting theyll get it all just right.

    Thank Melanie….there truly is nothing worse than feeling crazy, aftaid, angry, horrified, out of body surreal fellings….when it comes to what the narcissist will do to our children.


    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 11, 2015

      Hi Jean,

      I am so pleased NARP is helping you so much.

      It is so wonderful how when we release our traumas one at a time how we just organically start to become whole, healthy, happy and “wise”.

      (Our True Self state)

      It is such a relief after the all the feeling you described … that can become unliveable after N-Abuse.

      Hence why we need to heal!

      You are so welcome Jean!

      Bless 🙂

      Mel xo

    Larry R
    November 9, 2015

    This article was great timing for myself as I’m one of those that gave been worrying about and trying to focus on fixing my kids thinking about this a lot. I’ve taking your recent advice in a reply to work on myself and that will naturally rub off on my kids 3 and 5. I have started to focus on myself more and noticed a big difference in affection from my kids which is amazing. I thought I had a good grasp on this concept but this article caught me out, especially hit me when you say Mel that focusing on trying to fix our kids is trying to fix and heal ourselves through our kids. And that there is nothing to be gained by worrying about the neglect that kids may have sufferred when we were unconscious and when we broke down. Fantastic article Mel, empowering and inspiring. xxx

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 11, 2015

      Hi Larry,

      I am always so happy when a partner starts working on themselves and their children (and the parent) benefit so much …

      Big kudos to you and that is great that this article has taken it to an even deeper level for you.

      Mel xo

    Amanda Maher
    November 9, 2015

    Thank you Mel for this article. A few weeks back I saw your U-Tube where you laid me out with your comment that I, as the codependent, was probably more toxic to my kids than the N. But immediately I knew what you said is true. I had had an argument with my daughter, a disagreement that I did not take very seriously, but evidently she did, as she stopped speaking to me. I was moved to send her an email where I acknowledged to her that I was self-absorbed and angry when she was growing up, that I was sorry, and that I have always loved her and felt totally grateful for her. I told her that it hurt that she did not respect me; on the other hand I am glad she disagrees with my choices because I would be sad for her to follow in my footsteps. I hoped that ultimately, she could find value in the fact that I went from victim to survivor to thriver. I don’t understand why, but my email only seemed to infuriate her. Still, I was vulnerable and authentic with her, and even if she never speaks to me again, I acknowledged the kind of mother I was to her. My younger son and I have become closer than ever after I left the N. He is still after me through the courts, but I continue to heal the past wounds. I still feel the anger though. Still finding myself wanting to rub his face in the dirt. That’s a step up from the grief and misery, for sure, but still A-grade narc supply, even though I never let him see a smudge of it. I guess that’s the next place to go in my healing, seeking after that space of neutrality. One thing I notice is that, even though he is not my daughter’s father, or close to her, when he goes in for the kill, that is when she estranges herself from me. That just goes to show how energetic this stuff is.

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 11, 2015

      Hi Amanda,

      it is wonderful that you are really getting it – how to parent differently.

      I want you to really, really understand something in this … the positive results are so reliant on how much we have or haven’t addressed our own inner wounds.

      Because no matter what we “say” to our children even with the right intentions – if we are still carrying the wounds inside us that the narcissist triggered for us – and they have not as yet been evolved back to health – then our energy “statement” could still be loaded with pain, expectation, angst, fear etc.

      What we “say” is not the determiner. How we “show up” emotionally is – and this has nothing to do with what we can or can’t hide – because the energy “just is” regardless.

      We start seeing the really “clean” results with our children, when we have clear emotions (healed and uplevelled) in our own bodies.

      If you haven’t as yet Amanda, I suggest coming into the Webinar Group so that you can understand the deeper work, which really does address the healing for ourselves and our children at the core (real) level.

      Mel xo

    November 12, 2015

    Thank you so much for this, it is truly some of the most inspiring thoughts I have read on the subject of narcissism and healing yourself and thereby your children. I am a recovering co-dependent who has begun the long, painful journey of learning to love and care for myself and also acknowledge my own part in the “dance”. As I am gentler with myself, my communication with my adult children has improved in a way I never could have imagined. Such wonderful validation. You are truly a wise woman.
    Blessings, Maynel

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      November 12, 2015

      Hi Maynel,

      you are so welcome, and I am so pleased this article has helped.

      How lovely that your communication with your children has improved so much.

      Thank you for your lovely words 🙂

      Mel xo

    January 29, 2016

    I am separated from the narcissist and we have 2 children – with me having primary physical custody. Because I have learned well to not react and give him as little contact as possible, he has begun attacking the kids. They are ages 11 & 8. Most of the time I do well. However, I do get triggered, especially when my children are being hurt. He mades insanely bad parenting decisions such as making my children go through 3 church services 9-3:30 without being able to eat a meal until around 4. The kids have told me, we have talked about it and they have told him countless times they are hungry. He dismisses them, tells them they have to wait or not now, or whatever. He’s too busy in his own head to care about them. His selfishness is bordering on abuse. This is just one example of what’s on my plate right now. I have told my attorney (we are waiting on judge, final custody/financials haven’t been decided) but haven’t gotten an answer. Is this something I should email him and say Look, feed the kids a meal or should I approach it legally or do I do no contact and continue to watch this happen? I have signed up for the webinar. I may be a bit late because I don’t put my kids to bed till 8:30-9 my time and it starts at 8 but will do my best to try to be there at 8:30.

    March 16, 2016

    Wow.. I don’t really know what to say.. I’ve been reading all kinds of stuff about narcissists and co-dependency, have for long time attending online groups and forums, searching online, going to therapist for a couple of years mainly because of my latest realtionship (recently ended it after eight years) but also bacause of earlier traumas.. none of it have made so much sence as your posts and videos.. It’s like I get it.. What to do, how to heal, why I’ve been in several destructive relationships (the latest has absolutley done the most damage to myself and my son) and that I’m only a victim if I choose to be one.. I surley have a long way to go before I’m the stable, mature, confident and happy adult and parent that I want to be, but I’m soo greatful for the “tools” I’ve found in your texts and I’m positive that it will help me on my road to recovery. Many thanks and hugs to you Mel/ Sara

    Linda Djärv
    February 8, 2017

    Hi Melanie!

    I found this article about a year ago. I can only say that reading this was life changing for me and truly an eye opener. At that time I was really struggling with this and though it was very hard to take in, it made all the difference. Since then everything is so much better, getting the last piece of the puzzle in there. Still working on it every day. Now I am recommending your site, especially this article, to friends and people who need to read this. As a matter of fact I searched for this article today to help a friend (I just talked to her on the phone for two hours about how she needs to let go) when it hit me; I really want to thank you! So from the bottom of my heart (or should I say with my whole heart ;-)) thank you so much Melanie for doing this! You are a true inspiration and you are helping the world to heal with love.

    Love & Blessings all the way from Sweden/

    August 12, 2018

    Thank you Mel, great article.
    Great to see an example of healthy way and not healthy way.
    I’m glad to see I do many things positively for my kids.

    I understand no contact is ideal, or not living together.

    I’m doing your Quantum Healing course and it’s great, thank you.

    I do wonder if you would have an example for a situation where people still have to share the living space and small kids are used by n spouse to get the other spouse to react, involving kid’s health and safety, making it look like he’s doing something but he might not. Where there’s no proof and I haven’t healed enough yet to turn the energy around but I’m working on it daily.
    How to get through this rough part?

    How to take responsibility for my actions, when incident needs involvement, how to do it so that kids won’t get my toxic reaction?

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      August 12, 2018

      Hi Changing,

      That is a great question and not one that I have written specifically on , other than absolutely a narcissist will use the children to try to bait you to get narcissistic supply.

      Really the most powerful shift and ‘the knowing what to do’ will come for you by addressing this specific trauma in your body that you feel reaching him doing this and shifting it out (Module 1 can be used to do this) … so that when it happens, where the angst was will be replaced my calm knowing and wisdom.

      Ultimately separation from him and your children being parented separately is going to be much healthier for them, even though … of course … we can understand how we have been conditioned not to believe that.

      I hope that this can help you.

      Mel 🙏💕❤️

    August 12, 2018

    Thanks a million Mel, I’ll do that with Module 1.

    I’ve got way more answers from inside since I started doing your Modules. Thank you.

    Since writing this last night, I did a Goal shift “Breakthrough for my breakthrough” and I’m seeing clearer already this morning:
    I’ve relied on his promises – domino effect -> waiting for him, relying on him when I couldn’t;
    It annoys that he doesn’t speak up and assumes BUT I’ve done the same, so I’m grateful for him showing me what I need to work on myself.

    Thanks to this article and Modules, I really see that I need to “tidy up my side of the street” first and kids will benefit from that.
    We’ve had a fun morning with lots of games and laughter today, I even took time for myself.

    I’ve done today what I wanted to do,
    instead of relying on others,
    instead of waiting to see if I’ll get to do what I want,
    instead of leaving my needs “for later”.
    Result: we’ve all benefitted :-).

    Thank you.
    😍 ♥

    • Melanie Tonia Evans
      August 14, 2018

      Awww Changing,

      This is soo good!

      Well done on wonderful progress!

      Mel 🙏💕❤️

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