Melanie Tonia Evans

How To Evict The Narcissist From Your Head And Move On With Your Life – Part 2

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What an interesting discussion we had last week regarding Part 1!

If you haven’t read the first installment of this two-part series please go and read it first.

I think it’s very important that we don’t get sidetracked by some of the comments differing from what the message really was all about … (even though … thank you … I did greatly appreciate everyone’s amazing emotional intelligent, love and support!)

Understanding how to get out of the loop of repeat painful thoughts that cripple our ability to regain control and start taking positive actions in our life.

Last week we learned that the story originates from the beliefs we have about ourselves and all of life – our Inner Identity.

As you are very aware, the levels of trauma experienced in narcissistic abuse deeply affect the way you are now seeing the world …

It is usual to struggle to put your faith in people and believe humans are ultimately good people.

And … it is likely you have lost faith in yourself to make the right judgements for your happiness and your safety.

Worst of all … you feel as if life does NOT has your back.

Unfortunately, most common methods of recovery do not address the truth – that the trauma is in your Being and not your brain, and it’s the reason I spent years in crippling pain and repeat trauma, before I found the answer that would eventually set me free.

In the final piece of this two-part series I am going to teach you all about that trauma which is currently residing in your Inner Identity, as well as how to heal it.

This is such an important topic because the understanding of what “your story” is about, and the exact trauma that it originates from, grants you the vital piece of the puzzle that will give birth to your Thriver Recovery.


Trying to Think Our Way Out of the Trauma Versus Shifting it Out of Our Body

I want to really explain the difference …

Let’s take one of my reoccurring previous obsessive thoughts – Who is he with now?

In the mind story I would be going through his Facebook account, trying to work out “who she was” and stalking pages. Or doing drive-bys past his place to try and see whose car was there.

And … spending hours upon hours in deep depression fretting … imagining the worst.

Imagining him making love to another woman in the bed we used to. Imagining him wining and dining her (as he had me) and having her fall for him – thinking he was the most wonderful man she had met …  ever.

Some of my deepest fears was somehow he would be different with her. Maybe she was the woman who was going to get the goodies of what I thought originally was my dream man.

At this point of my “relationship with myself, others and Life evolution” I was nowhere near knowing that I was capable of generating an amazing life, directly with Life.

I wasn’t on the field let alone anywhere near the goals.

I felt powerless.

There was so many young, undeveloped not yet healed and grown up parts within me, that I truly believed (without even realising it) that someone else had to provide my Life for me.

I was co-dependent (seeking myself from outside of myself) and subconsciously trying to get a partner who would act as a parent, instead of partnering myself enough to be a healthy partner and create a healthy relationship with another healthy partner.

As you can imagine, my head was spinning with all the associated anguish regarding him not granting what I certainly wasn’t granting myself – love, approval, survival and security –terrified that my supposed Source of these things was going to start granting them to someone else!

The feelings of being alone, powerless and empty were overwhelming. There was no ability to date to try to find a replacement … someone to love me out of my trauma.

Then there was the constant agony about losing so much and not being in a position to rebuild, let alone meet someone who may love me, take the pain away and grant a sane, safe, abundant and healthy life.

At this stage of my journey I also believed stuff and assets defined me.

How on earth could anyone love and accept me with very little (because of losing so much) when I certainly didn’t love and accept myself without what I thought made me me?

Here I was behind the eight ball regarding loving myself, let alone inspiring anyone else to … waking up in the middle of the night, most nights, with yet another nightmare – sweating profusely, suffering a panic attack and not knowing how to face the next day.

It literally felt like I was going to die, with no way out.

And this is only some of the dozens of reoccurring traumatising thoughts that used to batter me relentlessly.

Many of the other thoughts were regarding what he had done … the mental abuse, the physical abuse and threats and his abuse by proxy – which had turned countless people as well as authorities against me.

How could someone who professed undying love be so cruel and act like he wanted to destroy me?

Yet … the craving for him persisted.

All of it came back to the same unhealed truths within me.

I had made him responsible for my Life because of the inner wounded child inside running my emotional Inner Identity believing he needed to be.

When he refused to be a savior and instead played out the role of torturer … my Inner Identity (which was underdeveloped and powerless) ONLY let go when the pain of staying became worse than the terror of leaving – meaning when it became a life and death situation.

The oscillation was insanity – keeping going back because of the obsessive thoughts that I could not survive without him, and that I certainly did not have what it took to survive on my own.

In those terribly limiting traumatic dependent beliefs, I was powerless to solidly pull away and be a healthy solid Being, despite any amount of therapy, reading or “learning”.

None of it stuck or held, and time and time again there was the defaulting back to everything “known” being flung out the window to land back in powerless, triggered, panicked, “feeling like dying without him” states.


Because of unhealed trauma wedged in my Inner Being – fractures that had been there long before meeting the narcissist that represented every terror he was triggering.

It was so huge … trying to sort this out cognitively was total Wrong Town!

And in regard to extreme trauma, it doesn’t work for most other people either.

Now … let’s look at the Quantum Way to heal … the way to circumnavigate the head, get into the body and get to the truth of what is really going on.

This is the way that not only saved my life from certain demise, but also started to shape it in ways that changed everything to astounding new levels.

It even increasing how happy I thought I was before the abuse. (I know now that level of happiness was precarious and superficial anyway, compared to the True Self happiness that I experience now.)

Okay …. so the terrible thoughts, Who is he with now? would start up.

So instead of thinking about them, I knew it had to do with old traumas within that were being activated by him.

So instead of giving analysis paralysis any energy, I instead turned inwards.

How we connect to that is this: we feel inside of ourselves, accepting the traumas are somewhere within our body (they are NOT in our brain).

And the trauma won’t heal – until WE go to it and heal it.

We being the vital key.

No-one else is coming to do it for us. It is our Inner Being that is waiting and screaming out for ourselves no-one else.

And the more we assign False Substitutes to this task, the more we get anything but the healing. Rather, Life and our Soul hits us hard, with continued patterns that traditionally intensify, to hopefully evict us from that path.

All for the purpose that we can come home to the only REAL truth there is – home to ourselves.

Which is the foundational and vital template that creates a healthy life with all of our Life.

So within, so without.

What I discovered was this – the fastest most direct route home was to release myself from trapped internal trauma by getting it up and out of my body and replacing it with love and healing.

That was the only way the obsessive thoughts that I had fruitlessly being trying to manage stopped.

Here is the most important truth you could ever know about the thoughts that have been torturing you:

When there is no trauma remaining there is NO thoughts happening about it.

Because it just isn’t there anymore!

(Re-read that as many times as you need to, to really get it!)

Once you do “get it” you will know what your real mission “to do” is.


Locating the Trauma In Order to Shift It

When I went inside my body, in regard to the terror of being alone, abandoned and replaced, there were many traumas I located in my body … primarily felt in my upper back and in my heart.

What I discovered was the TRUTH of why I was clinging, obsessing and couldn’t let go and move on.

It was because:

I did not feel safe in life.

I didn’t feel safe with men.

I did not believe I was worth loving.

I believed I was only loveable if I fulfilled certain conditions.

I believed people who were supposed to love me would hurt me (annihilate me even).

I believed I needed a man to survive … regardless of whether or not he was respectful and caring or even abusive to me.

I believed if I let go and was alone, I’d die.

I believed that on my own I was worthless.

(And there were more …)

All of these traumatic painful beliefs were inside me, generating exactly what belief systems do – the validity of the belief to the letter.

Here’s how.

I was scared of being with a man, and I was scared of not being with a man.

In that double bind I was constantly living the personal reality of being unsafe and anxious in and out of relationships.

I made choices and continually showed up in relationships in ways that was unloving to myself.

I made choices out of relationships in ways that was unloving to myself.

I was ignoring my intuition and letting my head talk me out of warnings and would make excuses based on my “neediness” instead.

I clung no matter how much I was being hurt.

When I finally had to let go I was pining, feeling like I was dying and obsessing continually.

I remained in the stranglehold of this pattern, with it intensifying all the way to narcissistic abuse (the Big Bad Wolf) UNTIL I healed where it was really all going on.

At the level of BELIEF.

At the level of internal wedged trauma.

When I discovered and channeled how to heal with Quanta Freedom Healing – my life was never the same again – because finally I got free of the traumas, the terrible thoughts and all of the anxiety and depression which I had thought was my normal life existence to continually battle and try to survive!

In stark contrast, I discovered it was NEVER the way ANY of us are intended to live Life!

Not me, not you, not anyone!

Previous life in “my head” was all to do with the narcissist, what he had done, and the terror of him moving on with another woman – as well as my own helplessness, worthlessness and powerlessness.

The new life, being deeply self-partnered, was only EVER about releasing myself from my inner trauma.

It was through my previous unhealed wounds that I had assigned narcissists as the savior of these wounds rather than realise they were the messengers of them instead.

The message being …

Release the trauma and become your own Source of love, acceptance, survival and security and then you will generate wholesome and healthy relationships with others.

Then … you will no longer be so empty and powerless that you will cling to people even when they hurt you.

And … you will love yourself enough to never again attach to False Substitutes.

Since then I have never stopped shifting trauma out of my body.

If I get a negative thought occur that is in ANY way persistent, or a negative emotion surface, I go into my body with Quanta Freedom Healing to find the dense traumatic energy I am holding, load it up and shift it up and out.

Why would I not do this, when I know my life just gets better and better and better as a result … continually expanding and becoming more abundant, loving, joyful and magical?

For those of you who have not seen my Shifts Happen YouTube clips – this will grant you a better understanding of what Quanta Freedom Healing is, and how it works.


Turning Inwards

I want you to try this …

Think of something in your life that is a reoccurring painful thought and then close your eyes, open you body and breathe deeply and take your attention inside yourself.

State to yourself: Somewhere in my body is going to light up with this trauma I have wedged inside me.

Then it will … trust this.

It will feel like a dull (or sharp) ache, a sinking feeling, or even a somatic painful sensation.

It may feel heavy – like a depression or even dread.

Where is it?

Is it in your heart, your solar plexus, your back …  or maybe the pit of your stomach?

Maybe the dense energy is so big that it feels like it is under your skin everywhere throughout your body.

Then ask this part of you (wherever the energy is in your body) – with love and kindness (as if you were talking to a small hurt child who you adore) …

How old are you?

Be conscious that you are trying to get in contact with a previous underdeveloped part of yourself who still feels incapable of being a source to self and who still feels powerless, in regard to this trauma, this topic, you have just contacted in your body.

Trust your answer, and it will come to you through intuition – not logical analysis.

As a feeling … such as the flash of a number, or a memory … it will be however your subconscious chooses to communicate with you.

This communication may be loud and clear or barely audible. If we have been in our heads disconnected from our emotional self for all our life (which I put my hand up to previously) then this inner communication may take time … it can take dedicated, devoted effort on your part for your Inner Being to start trusting you and partnering with you with information.

But oh gosh … is it so worth persisting!

Trust and write down the age. If you receive the intuition of multiple ages, write down the youngest one.

Then ask this part of yourself, Sweetheart (or whatever term of endearment feels right for you) what is this about?

And do this with the loving intent to listen, be present, not judge – and to offer love and healing.

Be super-present.

Information may come –  scenes, feelings … or maybe words … of pain and fear.

Write the information down.

What you will find is the age appropriate wounds and terrors we suffered as little people that were never held and healed back to wholeness.

The wounds that we have been carrying forward with us, and still generating unconsciously in our life as adults – by meeting people who not only bring forth the dynamic reality of these unhealed wounds, but who are also carrying similar wounds of their own.

There is only one way out of that dance of love destruction.

Heal our own wounds back to wholeness.

We may attempt that with loving intent, or much Inner Child work and affirmations and most definitely that can provide some in the moment healing and relief.

Such as what you can do right now, if you are not working with Quanta Freedom Healing – you can be present with these wounds and offer your love, compassion and deep validation for the trauma that your Inner Being has suffered.

This can help a lot.

Yet, if we have intense and numerous traumas in our Inner Beings (which is very likely when we reached the make or break deal of narcissistic abuse) we may need some help to get past our constantly triggered obsessive thoughts, as well as the symptom of the traumas (such as PTSD) still wedged in our Being.

The shackles and blocks that can make it so difficult to fight our way out of the quagmire.

And it can be very difficult to clear space to reprogram our Inner Identity – just as it is very difficult to drive a Ferrari into a garage that is blocked off with a rusty old wreck, or put ice-cream on top of poop and think we can have an enjoyable desert!

Quanta Freedom Healing creates the “brain bypass” as the powerful game-changer that gets the job done, hence why you will hear so many people and myself constantly referring to NARP and NARPing (Quanta Freedom Healing Modules are in the Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program).

If you are new to the community or are unfamiliar with the NARP Program this page explain exactly how it works and how it came into being.

What we realise when we start coming out of the trance of living life from the outside in (obsessively thinking about everything) and instead start living life from inside out (going directly to the traumas to release and heal ourselves instead) is …

There is no point continuing to indulge in analysis paralysis when we continually experience that it only compounds the issues.

Why would we try to think our way out of trauma when the thinking is only at the consciousness level of trauma in our Inner Being?

And we wonder … why on earth weren’t we taught all along that this was never the REAL way to heal ourselves?


What If I Know This But My Head Continues to Get In The Way

Some of you people working with the NARP Program may be saying …

“I know ALL of this, I know the trauma is in my body, but what if my head derails me and takes me out and I can’t do shifts?”

Our egoic mind tries to control; it doesn’t like giving control up because it is insecure about it’s existence.

It obsesses, wants guarantees and answers NOW. It doesn’t like surrendering over to our super-conscious (which always holds and generates the perfect imprint of wellbeing, expansion and joy for us).

Also, our egoic mind loves to play the victim.

It likes to forgo personal responsibility by making everything and everyone else responsible for our pain – rendering us helpless to shift out of and release our trauma – because in the ego-hold our focus is NOT where our ONLY power lies – inside of us.

In the obsessive looped thoughts, we can be stuck in this trap.

Such as these Facebook posts demonstrate, which of course are common when trauma is trapped in someone’s Inner Being – generating the thoughts that match that trauma.

(I have great compassion for those in the agony, still trapped there – because I myself was in this torturous prison for long enough to nearly kill me.  And it is my greatest wish to help people get out of it, just as I have.)

“The greatest struggle I had was with the acceptance that the nice person I adored never even existed and also that he did most things to deliberately hurt me and as a form of punishment. Another struggle I still have is that he knew about my past abuse and did not even think twice to re-traumatize me.”

“I was told today that I’ve basically screwed his life … we aren’t together but now I feel awful and sad, we have minimal contact but even that little bit sends me right back to where I started. It’s horrible.”

“I think it’s mainly anger that keeps bringing my mind back to it. I have antidotes for when I feel frustration, resentment or the desire to control, and they serve me well. But my antidote for anger lets me down. Now and then, out of nowhere, I feel intense bursts of anger and find myself (in my head) really giving him/them a “piece of my mind”!”

“I was discarded AGAIN after an 18-year relationship with a very mentally/emotionally abusive Narc who triangulated me with his estranged wife. 18 months free of the monster and I am still stuck with so much self hate & living in a land of depression. I hate that I can’t find my way to start a new life. I so badly want to write MY STORY. I need help.”

This is sooooo painful … being constantly pounded by the powerless, painful thoughts that match the trauma in our body. I so know what that was like – because that was my entire life before Thriver Recovery!

When we realise the ego’s game … we recognise it’s like a cancer; it’s a parasite and it wants to live off the toxic dense energy in our body. It doesn’t want us to heal and tries to block that happening.

All egos eventually destroy their host … because they destroy life-force.

The ego is our Internal Narcissist – making out it serves us and protects us, but is destroying us instead.

How do we rid ourselves of ego?

The same way we do a narcissist … free ourselves of all of the internal trauma that allows it to attach within in us and feed.

When you release your internal trapped trauma your ego dissolves away with it.

To dissolve your ego away means you have to bypass you head, get into your body and access and shift the trauma out that is feeding your ego.

The ego’s domain is in your HEAD.

If you have been suffering from ego takeover (painful thoughts), then your head needs to be much less involved.

Here is a list of points to help you, those of you who are working with the NARP Program.

  • Whilst accessing a trauma in your body, if the story pulls you into it, then stop with getting information about “what it is” and simply feel the Energy of IT in your body. Do your shifts from there, with NO information until you can access information without getting dragged into it.
  • Know this: you are accessing information ONLY to be able to feel the charge of the trauma in your body. If you feel the charge, then there is NOT even a need to find the age or the information about it. Load up the trauma and shift it out with the process, and with your Inner Child see him / her as however he / she appears.
  • To heal any trauma there is NOTHING to learn, only traumatic energy to shift up and out and wellbeing to bring in. It is interesting and informative to get the “information” about it, but in NO way is it necessary.
  • Don’t run from the emotion (charge) in your body and don’t judge it. When you have claimed a trauma in your body and feel it (which is totally necessary to heal it), what is necessary is to just BE with it fully and unconditionally, as you would a child you adore who comes to you with intense pain (if you were being a conscious parent).
  • Hold the trauma by feeling it fully, being super-present, body open and breathing and just BE with it – heart open with love. Don’t talk up a “victim story” about it, such as: This is horrible, this is shocking. STOP doing that!
  • In stark contrast to trying to divorce yourself from negative emotions (leaving trauma there to feed your ego), say to yourself in the painful triggers, I bless and accept this feeling because it is leading to my greater liberation … and mean it with all your Being.

For you to Go Quantum and leave behind the victim egoic mind perspective for ever (accelerating your healing journey beyond description) that last point is VITAL.

And always … self-partner, go inwards and free yourself from the trauma.

Now you are living your life as you were always intended to – evolving yourself beyond Who You Were Being into the next Highest Version of Yourself – because every time you release trauma and bring in wellbeing as the replacement (which is what the QFH Process in the NARP Program does for you) all of that energy you had locked down trying to survive your wounds is unleashed to be available for love, creation, inspiration and miracle.

That is when your life starts taking off in ways that you simply did not have access to before as the Old Self.

When you start living as the New Self you will see …

You are finally Living.


To Do Is To Know

This 180 degree turn in the way you live, may be something your mind will demand “proof” of before trying.

But there is no way to get that – it is a reality that has to be experienced to be known.

As was stated in this brilliant post by Kirstie last week:

“What Mel describes, going into the body, is something you have to experience; it cannot be understood by words. Like this experience of trauma cannot be understood by describing it with words.

To know and not to do, is not to know.

I can now describe, speak about my experiences without having a physical reaction. It is now just a situation I went through in the past.

But in fact I don’t speak of it, because it’s not relevant now.

Do the body work and your life will become stable again, and your concentration will settle back to normal.

I did NARP for 2 years and now I am free and happy. I smile with my heart again.

I think sometimes we don’t believe we are doing it right (NARP) but one day it all just clicks into place and we start to notice we are grounded and stable again, and like we don’t know when the abuse took over, the same happens with being stable and happy again, it just happens, we don’t really notice. I think it’s good to reflect every few months the progress….because there is always progress.

Keep going, keep smiling NARPers….. x”

Many NARPers in this Community have discovered the same, just as I did, but of course you don’t have to take my word for it. Your mind may want to research (there is nothing wrong with being skeptical), so please do some research and read the many regular comments of people who are NARPers in this Community living this reality, and you will start to sense what is possible for you.

Most importantly connect to your cellular Inner Knowing …

What does all of this information feel like to you?

Some part of us always knows the truth.

That was exactly the part of us that also knew better when we were connected to the narcissist. Our Inner Knowing was screaming and warning us – something feels really wrong here, but it was our egoic mind that wanted a different reality …

Because of the parts of ourselves not yet healed back to wholeness – the insecure, scared parts that didn’t know how to let go, heal and generate for ourselves a healthy, solid and real reality.

Your Inner Being is no different to any other human being’s.

It can heal.

When you release and replace the trapped internal trauma – no matter WHAT your life circumstances presently are – then you, your thoughts and your Life must shift.

It’s Quantum Law.

That is what the Thriver Way is all about.

I hope you have enjoyed Part 2 as the conclusion to this series, and I look forward to answering your questions and comments.


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25 Thoughts on How To Evict The Narcissist From Your Head And Move On With Your Life – Part 2
    February 17, 2017

    Many thanks Mel for all the wonderful advice you have given in these emails. I can’t afford to buy the NARP program at the moment but at least I can start working on my inner traumas. My divorce is coming up soon and I am terrified that my ex is going to take my house from me. He has told his solicitors so many lies and I worry about how much he will be believed. I cannot not afford to pay him any money as my son and I are living hand to mouth. The house was left me by my late husband and so it should be my sons inheritance . I have let go of all the thoughts of wanting my ex back and know that I have to do the work in order to heal but it really is this problem with the house and divorce that is proving to be my biggest obstacle at the moment. Has anyone got any advice that would help me please?

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Tiny,

      you are very welcome. And my heart goes out to you in this difficult and stressful time.

      Please know we do have sponsorship assistance for people who need help with NARP.

      All you need to do is send an email to and explain your circumstances to apply.

      There is so much love and support in the NARP Forum from Thrivers who have been through exactly what you are dealing with right now, and who have come out the other side.

      That would be a wonderful help for your right now.

      Also please google my name + divorcing a narcissist + settlements etc. as I have created quite a few resources about this, and I hope they can help you.

      Big hugs and stay strong, you can and will get through this.

      Mel xo

    February 17, 2017

    A lot of repetition in this article, but it’s very necessary :).

    I’m hoping it will inspire more people to join in.

    People, if you’re tired of the pain. If you’ve had enough of living your life the way you have up until this point, then please – by all means – try the NARP programme.

    It is the best investment I ever made.

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Miba,

      thank you for your recommendation, and I am so pleased NARP has been able to help so much.

      Mel xo

    February 17, 2017

    Its been a difficult and long journey and I’ve had to take breaks from doing the NARP modules at times. But I really do feel like its starting to pay off. In my heart I know the truth of Melanie’s wisdom as to the causes of the pain and trauma. I too had a total meltdown and personal ego breakdown replete with psychosis and agoraphobia. None of that would have been possible without crippling internal beliefs. There were weeks when all I could do was the modules and TRE because my breakdown was so complete- I too was suicidal and powerless, experiencing what felt like 6 hour long panic attacks daily-an excruciating existence. I have come through with a combination of medication and commitment to NARP. I had to supplement with the ‘shift’s happen’ episodes to help me release as my ego was really getting in the way. Fortunately Melanie is SO dedicated, committed and keeps supplying more and more material to help those of us who are ‘stuck’ but willing to persevere. Forget abut the narcissist- when you experience total collapse as I did, the only reality is your own illness and the need to find a cure or die! If this is you, don’t delay, commit to the NARP modules today! Thank you so much, Melanie!

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Stella,

      you are so welcome and it is wonderful you are making your way back too from such a breakdown, and I am so happy Shifts Happen has helped you learn more about how to circumvent your ego.

      It takes huge courage and please know you are an inspiration!

      Mel xo

    February 17, 2017

    tINA please find the channel “Dad Surviving Divorce” on Youtube

    February 18, 2017

    Thanks Melanie for clarifying that the age and the information about the charge are NOT a requirement to do the work!! This is massive for me. One of the reasons why I took a break from moduling is because not getting information left me too much in my head looking for one. During the past months I have done Reiki and Bioenergetics, and it seems like it complemented perfectly what I had started with NARP, because I was just releasing and I realized for the first time that I didn’t need the “information” part to shift things. Since then I have been wondering if it was the same for the moduling and you address it here very clearly and now I understand it is much simpler that it seemed to me few months ago!! In the last days I kept moduling in “chunks” and also not focusing on the information – glad to know I am on the right path, it is working indeed! I am working on some minor triggers that I had in the last days, but overall I am not the person I was one year ago. I am so happy to be on this journey of self healing and empowerment.
    Much love Mel , thanks xoxo

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Lady Jedi,

      my pleasure and I am so pleased this has helped.

      Yes it certainly is working, and that is wonderful you are moving forward and up and out of trauma!

      That is wonderful you love this path – bless you Lady Jedi!

      Mel xo

    February 18, 2017

    Mel I also have a question, a family friend (in her 60ies, my mom’s age) is going through a divorce from a Narc…In my country there aren’t really many resources , neither to understand or to heal…And she is not familiar with english. It breaks my heart not being able to refer other loved ones to these resources, what is the best way to help them and spread the message to non-english speakers?? xoxo

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Lady Jedi,

      I hear you and I would love to bring this information to other languages – and this is a global project in the future.

      It is so needed for non-english speaking people.

      The best way to help those we love – English speaking or not is to see and feel them within us as finding their way and getting empowered.

      When we do shifts inside our own body about our concern for them into solidness and empowerment – they often shift to reflect that.

      You can learn more about how what works in the NARP Forum Lady Jedi.

      Mel xo

        February 20, 2017

        I offer to translate into spanish lovely ladies!!!

    February 18, 2017

    Thanks Mel. I needed more than ever to read this today. I have been separated from my narc for 4 months. Just dating after the divorce for 11 years. But even the emotional trauma of trying then being let down, used emotionally, thinking you can fix someone. I have lowered the bar not even realizing I was doing it. Baby steps have helped me. But now at the end I still find myself obsessing. It is torture not being able to stop this obsessing. Your article came perfectly. I have inner trauma from a child and know it has to still be there. Thank you, your work has helped me so much more than you realize. Sending Lots of love to you……………………………………

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 18, 2017

      Hi Terri,

      you are very welcome.

      I am so pleased this is making sense as to why this is happening, and you see the connection.

      Wishing you the best in hugs and healing Terri.

      Mel xo

    February 18, 2017

    Hi Melanie! =D
    I am going through all of the materials again from the webinar and I just wanted to thank you for the wealth of information you gave us!
    I’m re-reading it all from the beginning and highlighting and I’m having some fantastic AHA’s! I continue to have AHA’s in NARP with the material, Modules and Forum! Thank you so much! =D

    I have a question for you Melanie:
    I do not have a job and I have tons of free time every day to do whatever. Would you recommend I go ahead and look for a job now or after 1-2+ months of moduling and when I feel mostly free of N Hooks and my Adrenal Fatigue is gone?

    I still have TONS of stuff to clear in the modules.

    I’m thinking that the person I am NOW (with N Hooks & Triggers & Truama & PTSD & Adrenal Fatigue & Fear & so much confusion about who I am and what I really want) and the person I’ll be a month from now and two months from now, after doing the modules every day, would attract a TOTALLY DIFFERENT JOB or IDEAS for a JOB, one that is much more in alignment with Love / Abundance & Truth.

    What are your thoughts on this?
    Thank you so much for everything Lovely Melanie! =D

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 20, 2017

      Hi Lucky,

      that is so great that you have been experiencing ahahas, shifts and breakthroughs.

      Lucky I love that Life is always flourishing and nourishing us, and is totally unlimited and unconditional – you certainly don’t have to perfect to experience awesomeness! We just need to KNOW that and be in alignment enough to listen to our interconnected Inner Beings.

      Have the feelings you have had about getting a job felt inspirational and like a positive call forward?

      Or is it a feeling of guilt and “I should do this?”

      If you don’t necessarily have to get a job now and it is the latter feeling – then I would suggest enjoying some more “you” time.

      If you feel inspired it is because you have released enough of the trauma to make space for a wonderful new expansion in you life.

      Do you have to perfect now?


      Does the job need to be perfect now?

      Absolutely not.

      All Life needs to be is enjoyable, offering wonderful connections, as well another wonderful opportunity to learn and grow, and who knows the Next Step?

      It means we are in the flow and Living – that is you only goal!

      I hope this helps!

      Mel xo

    February 18, 2017

    Hi I have just read your article, I have just left the safety of my house at least I had a bedroom and it was my house to the unsafely of my mother’s house, the second d unsafe place because I am so sick.

    I don’t have the guts to leave again and I Am going mad.

    I see in I had stayed at my house despite narcissist being present, at least I could sleep.

    Wish I had read your I formation o there.

    Everything you say is right. I have been and am o the verge of insanity for years declared m entaily I’ll by mother and sister and narcissist doctor

    Laurie Yair
    February 18, 2017

    I have sent some comments has been a long time…in short, I am in a horrible situation with my very abusive 22 year old daughter for the last three years and more actually…in 2012 approximately, when she (she has a psychiatric condition and I was still living with my abusive, narcissist husband at the time) had been convinced by her father to quit the med., he brain-washed her to hate me since I had been giving her med for her psychiatric condition…the med calms her down(she was in a hospital for a few years and boarding home) so, at this time she became abusive with me as well and violent. Before I left the home, my other younger daughter and I ran away from her in dear to our rooms because she was so violent physically. I finally left the home…but I made a mistake and moved into a rental way too close to that home and this daughter of mine found me fast! Since then, she would come at all different hours of nite and day, popping up unexpectedly and screaming at me and waking the other’s in the apt bldg. The police would come and I finally had to get a restraining order to keep her away. But it didn’t keep her away. Last year she almost tore down the door!

    Since she has nowhere to live (yet) because of her psychiatric disorder, because no social worker has found a place for her…she has not agreed to go to rehabilitation. So, she has been living with her father. A few months ago I left that last rental and she hasn’t found me thank G-d but she calls me and I meet her…yet every time we meet, she screams at me very loudly outside and so many people stare at us…

    I am quite sure that she is narcissist as well as abusive.

    I have been seeing a social worker over the last year and a half to help me with her. She works in a mental hospital with so many people who suffer from all the different mental disorders…and finally she met with my daughter this week. She is trying to get her to cooperate and to sign papers for rehabilitation.

    Unfortunately, this daughter is in an abusive cycle as I had been and my husband whom I am trying to divorce who is a narcissist and very abusive and she ended up in an ambulance again last night.

    I am praying that my daughter will continue to cooperate and fill out the rehabilitation papers.

    Two years ago, by chance, someone through the municipality found the most wonderful non profit which helps abused women. I had, at the time, moved out but had only been out of the house for a very short time. Well…the non profit found me a wonderful mentor. This mentor met me every week for coffee for 2 full hours and this is what she did: she helped me with that inner being. She helped me find all the good things in me. In the very beginning I said to her, “there are none”…she asked me to start writing down what I can do, what I liked about myself. It was torture! But then, it flowed. Once you realize that you are good at things, that you are unique, you will care and love yourself.

    I am almost deaf and have no work. I had to stop studying at the University after only the first half year as I contracted a horrible inner ear disease called Meniere’s. My life changed completely and I ended up in Israel. I found work way back in about 1982 as an English typist which was all I could really do! But then, I met this man whom I married who became abusive and then I had the of which has become abusive as well.

    But since the mentor meetings and her wonderful help, I realize that you owe yourself RESPECT and you don’t take abuse. At least it helped with my husband…but with this 22 year old daughter it is torture because I cannot escape her.

    Laurie Yair

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 20, 2017

      Hi Laurie,

      my heart goes out to you that is so painful what you have been through, and I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it must be to have the ongoing issues with your daughter.

      I so 100% agree that we have the power in our Inner Being to overcome the agony of so much, and it can generate what is love and wholesomeness for ourselves, which painfully, of course, can include strong boundaries to others.

      Yet, when we work at the Inner Being level we can call others up – if they can shift – to where we are – emotionally / energetically.

      And, regardless of how that goes we can heal ourselves – our state of Life can be unconditional .. and this is not selfish … it is what we are called to Live as.

      That is so wonderful this angel mentor has come into your Life.

      If you haven’t heard this Thriver Show Laurie, I believe it may be able to help you.

      Mel xo

    Violet Spectre
    February 19, 2017

    Dearest Quantum Guru,

    Once again your posts come like an oracular answer to an unasked question. Many, many times lately I’ve been doing my modules and there is simply no info in my notebook for many of the shifts: I’m too busy writhing around on the floor, or screaming or crying or just too involved in the sensations to write anything down. Thanks so much for clarifying that this is exactly how energy works and that no “story” needs to be attached to it. This was very freeing. I think I’ve noticed for myself and some other NARPers on the forum there’s a feeling that we’re “not doing it right”…as if our little me’s could do this wrong! I think some of us are so used to not listening to ourselves we doubt our insticts…even with this most intimate, delicate work on/with ourselves. I have come to understand that the cognitive effects bear out for me in “real life” as my sub-conscience moves through life free from these limiting survival programs and beliefs. As Malcom X said, “free your mind and your a** will follow!” Things that used to be crippling triggers are simply noted for mild annoyances or if they keep cropping up are dealt with in the modules. Jobs, and gigs are coming and the divorce is proceeding. I am healthier, happier and no longer looking for anyone else to blame or solve problems for me. Next step: really feeling the love the universe has for me!

    So thank you again, dear Mel for the timely advice and thanks to all of you in the NARP community for the love, compassion and healing that I and so many others benefit from everyday. Lots of love to you all!

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 20, 2017

      Hi Violet,

      Dear Lady!

      I am so pleased this has helped … yes – agreed! It is so freeing …

      Again you are SO right – it is a huge trick of the mind ‘maybe I am not doing it right / adequately / perfectly’ (whatever the story is!)

      Yet … all we need to do is be the energy and feel it.

      I love what Malcolm X said – he nailed it!

      How wonderful you have cleared space inside and things are falling into place! You SO deserve the best 🙂

      I ADORE your next step “Life unconditionally loves and flourishes and nourishes and flows through me!” … that is my alignment, and go for whatever feels great for you!

      Thank you for sending your love to all, and many blessings back to you Violet darling.

      Mel xo

    February 19, 2017

    It is difficult work to get past my ego and connect with my inner emotions. I have never experienced such positive results, though. The results of this are not dependant on anyone else giving me a thumbs up. Or a stranger assessing my well-being from their viewpoint. It is only my own feelings and my own life that determines what is going on. I love the way this healing requires us to be the final judge on how things are really going for us. And life is happy to show us if we are off track, so the refreshing perspective from others comes at me in a very sensory way, directly from situations that I have unconsciously created or been pulled into. Any repeater negative situation tells me is that there is something to heal there so I can stop repeating that pattern. So I can then find it and go and heal it.

    It is surprising that this whole program costs the same as a pair of nice shoes. Or one or two counselling sessions. And after so much time searching, I finally have healing to do that makes sense to me because it works.

      Melanie Tonia Evans
      February 20, 2017

      Hi Meg,

      it so is when we have believed that our ego is necessary, defends us and keeps us safe.

      Initially it is a huge challenge to let go and allow something so much wiser, more loving and healthy to step in.

      It is nothing short of “death / rebirth”.

      How wonderful you are now partnering directly with Life – that is what it is all about!

      It is freedom!

      I am so pleased NARP has helped you so much!

      Mel xo

    February 21, 2017

    Thank you so much for this clarification! I tend to over analyze and I have noticed after hitting my year mark that things were coming up for me even after doing all of the modules. I have been back in them over the past month but especially with the last two modules because I felt that was where I was. I could also see that having gotten into a long distance relationship that I had a triggers come up. And oddly with my year mark months before people and the N started cropping up without me even looking. A random photo on social media as an advertisement for something I do somehow happened, people telling me things and recently people telling me about the people he was involved with. I sometimes am not even sure how to let people know I just don’t need to know anything except maybe that they will be somewhere I am other than that I don’t care. For me now a year out to pretty much the day of the ending of my last one this distant relationship seems to be ending (not in a bad way mind you but a little confusing) and so I am diving back in. I have taken breaks from the modules at points too because I get so wiped out after a while and I feel it is because trying to find the “what is this about” instead of just feeling the feeling and putting the pieces of the whole “story” thing has been a big part of it feeling tired. I feel sometimes it is helpful but even if we get the “story” my guess is that we really need to just feel the feelings that it brings up instead. That makes more sense to me. I will take this route and see how it goes. Thank you for this and maybe it would be great if there was a Shift Happens: Just Feel It! that guides people through just feeling any trauma and not obsessing on getting deep into the story. And also maybe one that is about Creating Your New Story.

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