Don’t Get Tricked or Treated: The Spine-Tingling Truth About Narcissism

You may have heard by now that I’ve lost my voice, and am having to rest it by not speaking at all – I’m not even allowed to whisper. I’m sure you know how I love to communicate directly with you all, so it’s been a bit of a Halloween nightmare!

While I heal and take good care of myself, for this week’s ThriverTV episode I’m turning back the clock and rewinding to 2017. Back to the days of my darling Tiggy and this Halloween Special, where my impressive costume was matched with a deep dive into what could be a difficult topic.

I hope this TTV will feel less controversial to our Thriver community now, in 2022. These concepts of the darkness and the light are ones I’ve regularly spoken about over the last couple of years.

This Halloween seems an appropriate time to revisit the quantum truths on this subject. Are narcissists truly evil? And what is evil anyway?

Join me to find the answers to these questions, and to get to the heart of what narcissism REALLY is.

 

 

Video Transcript

Welcome to Thriver TV‘s Halloween Special! I’m Maleficent Melanie and this is Terrible Tiggy!

I want to explore the darker side of things for this Halloween Special so we’re going to be talking about what is evil? Is the narcissist evil?

I want you to bear with me because I’m going to explore light and dark, and concepts that go deeply into quantum realities, so that we can understand energy and how it plays out. There may be some things in this episode that you don’t agree with and that’s fine. Please bear with me as I circle back and bring you the answer to these questions – I’m going to get there, I promise!

 

Valuing Eachother And Our Beliefs

We all know that feeling of ice in our veins. The horrible disbelief we feel – the dread and unspeakable trauma – when we’re connected to a narcissist.

We know that it feels intensely evil. It also feels like a creepy psychic phenomenon – not unlike the Dementors in Harry Potter, who can literally suck your soul and your life-force from you.

Is this undeniable energetic force evil?

As I said before, this is going to be controversial. In fact I expect a flurry of posts on Facebook and YouTube! You may even want to email MTE disagreeing with what I’m about to share – and that’s ok.

Please know I am simply sharing my beliefs with you. There’s no necessity for you to agree with everything that I believe, in order to follow my work. As always, you’re free to take what resonates with you and totally dismiss what doesn’t.

It’s healthy, human, evolved and mature to ‘agree to disagree’ yet still love and respect eachother regardless.

I believe that having different theological views is not abusive or overstepping boundaries. One of my best friends is a Christian and what I love is that as spiritual people, she and I can have conversations without getting into a battle over differing views. As a Christian she has close friends who are gay, mothers out of wedlock, and atheists.

The religion is love. And when the religion is love we can have an open mind that will listen to different theologies. I believe one of the biggest problems on this planet is that we haven’t done this

The inability to do that is why we’ve been submerged into so much trauma and disaster throughout the human experience. We’ve not understood that we can disagree and still respect eachother and live happily. Rather we’ve murdered eachother over different views and then declared that as holy

 

The Difference Between The Darkness And The Light

Now let’s get started on the question of: are narcissists evil?

To answer this I need to reach into the quantum vault of what I feel, know and channel.

What I truly believe is that there is one energy. You can call it life force, creation, or even God. It embraces all of it – light and dark. Just as it embraces both summer and winter, day and night, and all that is.

In regard to states and manners of being, I believe that what we know as ‘light’ is connection. It’s oneness and it’s the energy of love, flow, growth, truth and consciousness.

What we know as dark – that state of feeling dark – is the energy of disconnection. It’s the experience of being separated and stuck in the dark. Not at that moment experiencing the consciousness of what really is – which is that everything is interconnected and that there’s only one life force which is creation.

Darkness is the experience of trauma – disconnection from self, life and others.

Yet even that process is part of ‘all that is’. It’s still connected and weaved within all of it.

That process brings an emptiness, which ironically feels like a black, dark hole inside when we’re experiencing disconnection. Then there’s a panic to try to fill that hole in order to try to feel whole.

In that state we don’t feel lovable, worthy or loved and we feel like something is terribly missing.

When we are trauma-free enough, then we feel and know our state of true interconnectedness to all things. We are loved and adored by all of creation simply because we exist as a part of creation itself. We feel lovable, worthy and loved. We feel that everything is perfect, and everything is in divine order exactly as it is. We feel like we’re home.

Neale Donald Walsch in ‘Conversations with God’ raised this idea to when considering somebody who hurts others: “What hurts you so much that you wish to hurt me?”

In stark contrast, when we’re connected and living the experience that we know is Life, we feel at one with ourselves. We feel love and joy as our organic state, so that’s how we relate to life and others.

We don’t feel that we need to change anyone else in order to be who we’re being. We’re simply being it.

 

The Foundation Of Personal Responsibility

At the quantum level, everything in our seen world originated from the unseen world first.

Every creation is an outer expression of an emotional idea and impulse first. The spark, if you like, generating a gestation that leads to the ultimate birth of something.

I believe that everything is energy, including dark and light, and they’re both powerful forces. In fact we mine our greatest growth, our greatest light, from our darkness.

History has proved over and over again that the most incredible reforms, breakthroughs and inspirations have come from difficult times.

When the struggle, on a personal or collective level, is harnessed into inspiration and creation, then energy that was once trapped in the darkness explodes forth into light – meaning positive growth and expansion. That’s what alchemy and transformation are all about.

Without the darkness it is impossible in this dimensional reality.

I also believe humbly that we all have a dark side.

I adore the Hawaiian philosophy of Ho’oponopono – you may be familiar with it – that there is nothing in our experience that we can view unless there is a part of us that is capable of that act.

This is why Ho’oponopono has the prayer of the most radical, hundred percent personal responsibility I’ve ever heard. It goes like this:

If you see something that you would like to be different – including atrocities and acts that may be classified as evil – you can say “I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I thank you.”

Meaning: “I am responsible for this. If I heal me regarding this, I can heal this thing itself. I am acting through the quantum law of interconnectedness – so within so without. To heal anything I can only heal me.”

 

So Within, So Without

Now before you get understandably indignant, and jump up and down in horror at that concept, please understand that on the quantum level we are all connected.

I’m you, and you are me. On the subatomic level – the wavelengths level – we are all one form.

When we understand the quantum level of life we start accepting ‘so within so without’. We accept that “for anything to be in my experience on a level that impacts me, there is a part of me that is being capable of committing it”.

I don’t mean right now (although in some cases that may be true). What I mean is in the past.

This may have happened cellularly, where we’ve epigenetically inherited the DNA of an ancestor who is a perpetrator.

Or maybe in past lives we did unspeakable acts due to extreme trauma ourselves. We may have had to kill or be killed to protect ourselves or our clans. Maybe we too did whatever it took to survive in a dog-eat-dog world of brutality.

I know, from my personal healing work from narcissistic abuse, that the things that the abuser did, that really stuck in my craw and that I obsessed about the most, were in fact the things that I’d perpetrated myself in the past, and were still in my energetic field. They were a match for the narcissist.

When I cleared that trauma of who I’d been and what I’d done, then the traumas – of obsessing about what had happened to me, and the belief that I’d been struck down by evil – melted away. I deeply understood that rather than the narcissist being evil, we are all capable of so-called evil acts when we’re filled with trauma.

At the quantum level, the truth is that there is only one person in the room.

Who had I really been mad at for being capable of acting like that? The deep and true answer is myself.

 

 

 

Does Evil Exist?

This Thriver TV episode is already controversial but I’m going to turn it up another notch because not only am I saying that as human beings we all contain darkness, I’m also going to say I don’t believe in evil.

I believe in trauma and disconnection from self, life and creation / God / higher power. But I don’t believe in evil.

I believe that there are terrible acts that look like evil – but for me, evil itself does not exist.

Once upon a time I totally believed in evil – and I found it a terrible way to live. It actually didn’t serve me, because I found it crippling to live in a world that represented evil things and people everywhere I looked.

This may also shock some people. I don’t believe that Satan exists. I believe creation, God and love exists, but I don’t believe Satan and evil exists.

I do, however, believe light and dark exists, and oneness and separation exists.

Much of humanity has not lived the experience of who we really are organically – which is a child of creation, higher consciousness, love and oneness.

This has happened as a result of the accumulated human trauma that unfortunately has been the hallmark of our extremely un-evolved planet steeped in ego – Edging God Out. We’ve been disconnected from the truth of oneness with incredible ungodly acts of vengeance, brutality and war. Hurt people hurt people.

I believe that the notion of Satan is what the deep Greek philosophy of ‘know thyself’ called Pan – a half-man, half-goat figure. Pan became a scapegoat.

Blaming it on Satan is saying, “an outside force made me or others do this – it must be the devil”. Rather than, “the darkness of the trauma within me is responsible for this. The trauma that I have not yet released and healed.”

Rather than being soiled and carnal, without our trauma we become the expression of God, creation and Source that we really are. We’re worthy, we’re loving and we’re light – and certainly this is our experience when we start releasing trauma. We come back into the fold of oneness and the truth, and we start to understand the reality of life and its interconnectedness.

To believe in evil I would need to believe in Satan, and I would also need to believe in the only way we should deal with evil people – which is to send them to hell.

 

The Reality Of Hell

Even as a young child I never understood the damnation of eternal hell. I couldn’t fathom something so final, which could be based on certain conditions without any recourse at all. It never resonated with me.

I actually don’t believe that hell is a place. I believe it’s a state.

No matter where we are, if we’re living the experience of being in the darkness – clogged up with trauma and feeling separated from ourselves, life and others – we’re in hell. We’re hurting,  we hold others responsible for our hurt, and we’re capable of hurting others.

The narcissist appears as malignantly evil out of the lack of turning back to the Light. The never reaching inwards to love themselves (wounds and all), self-partner, and heal.

The level of trauma and unconsciousness within the narcissist is so extreme that he or she has completely divorced themselves from the true self, which is the only connection to oneness, creation and one’s higher power and others.

The narcissist is instead operating through a false self – an ego run amok – which believes it is its own lone-wolf God. The narcissist is always disconnected from life, creation, oneness and others – and trying to get ‘things’ and ‘stuff’ to take away that agony.

 

Do Narcissists Go To Hell?

If this was evil, does this mean the narcissist is going to hell?

I don’t believe so. I say this because of all I’ve already shared with you in this episode, and also because I’ve had a life between lives regression experience.

This is a deep hypnosis, where you get to experience yourself as a soul energy back home – before physical incarnations – in a deeply regressive state.

Some of you may have heard of Dr. Michael Newton’s work. If not, I urge you to check him out with an open mind, no matter what your beliefs are. There’s research about it, and I know that there are people in this community who’ve had a life between lives experience. I recommend it – it’s truly life-changing.

When having a soul experience in an LBL there are things you just deeply know. Your consciousness is operating at that level of oneness and interconnectedness to all things, and you can opt to find out the real quantum truth about other souls as well as your own.

What I discovered about narcissists as souls, is that when they’ve reached the point of no return – meaning that the soul has been so corrupted by the False Self dark entity that it’s impossible for it to evolve back to the light – then that soul is reabsorbed back to oneness, which is Higher Consciousness / God / Love. It’s recycled and emerges again as a fresh soul, a new soul.

So rather than being punished to eternal hell, the most damaged souls of all – the ones that need love the most – receive it. They go back home to dissolve into pure love – God if you like – to start as love all over again.

I saw that process happening to those souls in my LBL and I felt the deep truth of it. How happy it was to know that even the most evil of souls originally came from the oneness and returns to it. It came from the light and it’s going back home to that.

 

Are Narcissists Evil?

Do I believe that narcissists are evil? No I don’t.

I believe that they’re separated. I believe that they are completely riddled with trauma and they’re acting that out. But I don’t believe that they’re evil.

And I believe that all of us are going home, regardless of whether we’re operating in disconnection or oneness. Because that oneness is so big we can’t miss it.

It’s not a question of if, it’s a question of when.

 

In Conclusion

I hope that this made sense.

If you feel that you are really reaching towards that light and coming into a soul truth about releasing your trauma, I’d love you to connect to my free resources. Become a part of my Thriver Community, because that’s what we do – we release our trauma and evolve.

I’d love to hear your comments and questions about this controversial topic that I’ve spoken to you about tonight.

So enjoy Halloween! Terrible Tiggy and I might go out trick or treating, that would be really quite fun!

Until the next Thriver TV episode keep smiling keep healing and keep Thriving, because there’s nothing else to do!